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Carl Grimes x female!reader [[The walking Dead]]

All things must come to an end

Tears ran down my cheeks. My hands were shaking and couldn't form a coherent sentence.
I closed my eyes and tried to breath steadyly for a second, but I couldn't, I just couldn't.

My eyes opened, as the hand holding mine slightly tightend. I looked down and saw Carl smiling at me. I tried to smile back, but more tears ran down face.
He slowly lifted his shaking hand. He softly caressed my cheek, while his thumb rested on my lips.
"Carl", I mumbled and leaned into his touch.
"Y/N", He whispered, "It's alright, it's alright"

I heard Rick sniffle next to me and looked up, we locked eyes and he pulled me in for a hug, while I tried not to loose it completely. For Carl, for Rick and Michonne.

"Dad", Carl coughed and looked at Rick, "Can Y/N and I get a minute alone, please?"
Rick hesitated for a second and so did I, but before I could say anything, Rick nodded and stood up. He grabbed Michonnes hands and the two of them left, while Rick carefully caressed Michonne's shoulder, trying to calm her down.

" Carl, why did you-", I wondered, but he grabbed both of my hands.
"Help me sit up, please", Carl said and I put my arm around his waist, pulling him into a sitting position. He coughed in pain and leaned his head against my shoulder and could feel his breath against my neck.

"Y/N", he said quietly and looked up at me.
"I know, that saying 'it's alright' over and over again, doesn't make it alright."
I nodded while caressing his cheek. Carl closed his eyes for a second. He looked back up at me and now I could see tears in his eyes too.
"I want you to know, that you're the love of my life and even if it was only this short, there has never been anyone else, but you"

A sob escaped my lips, I couldn't believe my ears.

"And even though I know that it won't be easy for you, I want you to remember, the good stuff, when you think about me. Don't think about this day, don't think of my death. Please, think of my life. The life we had together", Carl explained and squeezed my hand, while I quietly listened to him.
I felt him pull my chin up, so that I was facing him again.

"Do you remember the day my mother died?", he asked.
I only nodded:"How could I ever forget that"
"It was the day, I fell in love with you"
My eyes widened:"You never told me that"
A soft smile adorned his lips:"You've helped me through the death of my mom. You were with me the whole time and even days after it, just holding me, while I cried into your shoulder"
"I remember", I murmured.

"And do you remember our first kiss?", he asked.
A chuckle escaped my lips, as I thought back to that day.
"Of Course, I remember. It must have been one of the most chaotic days ever"

***

"Carl!? Carl, will you wait, please!?", I whisper-yelled, while I desperately tried to grab his hand, but he kept on running away.
"God damn it, wait!!", I yelled again, but suddenly bumbed into his back. Carl quickly turned around and grabbed me by the shoulders. He pulled into an alley between Maggie's and Glenn's and our house.

"Carl, what the hell-", I asked and looked up, but he quickly put his hand of top of my mouth and motioned for me to shut up.
I followed his eyes and finally saw, what he saw.
Since we were trying to sneak out of Alexandria, we had to be quiet and most important, no one could see us.

Now, I could see Maggie and Glenn, walking down the street, hand on hand.
We stayed in our spot for a few minutes, until they were gone and finally, Carl lifted his hand.
I breathed in heavyly and looked up. His face was barely a few centimeters away from mine.