[ sam's ]
i feel so bad for pushing charlie away last night.
i always do this. i always push everyone away. but i can't let history repeat itself. if i let myself fall for him i would be fucked, and he would be fucked too.
i look out my window and i see him lying alone under the shadow of a big tree.
his eyes are closed and the corners of his lips are curled into a smile, which makes me smile uncounciously.
what if i have already let myself fall for him?
this thought makes my smile disapear in less than a second and i walk away from the window scared.
i have to control my feelings, i can't afford to loose control, again.
it's already too painful. i wouldn't be able to forgive myself this time.
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this was a really really short chapter but it's 2am and i just came back from italy so i'm exhausted >.<
