[ sam's pov ]
i had an amazing week with charlie. he's a dork but he's adorable and i love him a lot.
he makes this prison so much better, this has been my happiest days here. he also keeps me away from my thoughts, which is really helpful, because i was starting to get bad again. the day we met, a month ago, i felt it again. the darkest places of my mind were taking over myself, but then he came into my life and everything was okay again.
'hey' he mumbles still half asleep.
he has been sleeping in my room a lot lately, but we haven't done anything other than kissing and watching the vampire diaries (i obviously made him watch it, and he always complains about it but deep down i know he loves it).
'good morning' i say leaning to kiss him.
'is it saturday already?' he asks after yawning in the most adorable way ever. he remindes me of a kitten.
'i think so, why?'
'i promised patrick we would eat with him and his boyfriend today'
'who's patrick?' i ask crunching up my nose.
'he's an old friend who sometimes comes to visit, haven't i talked you about him?' he says distracted.
'nope' i shake my head 'but it's okay, it will be fun meeting one of your friends'
'okay, i'll meet you outside in a couple of hours' he leans to kiss my cheek and then he gets up from the bed, grabs his clothes and gets out of the room.
'bye babe' he says before closing the door.
i smile like an idiot when he calls me babe. he did it without even thinking. i love him so much.
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'here you are!' charlie smiles at me when i arrive at the small garden just next to the front door. 'they'll be here in a few minutes'
'i can't wait to meet them' i say while grabbing his hand excited.
'i'm sure they'll love you' he smiles at me and his amazing green eyes glow with the sun 'you look so beautiful'
i blush and smile wider.
i was hoping he'll notice actually.
we're only allowed to wear other clothes that aren't the uniform on saturdays, so i decided to wear the yellow dress my aunt gave me on christmas and i hadn't got the chance to use it until now. i also styled my hair in a cute french braid and added a white flower to it.
'hey guys!' charlie yells waving at the distance.
he keeps smiling in the same direction, but i can't see anyone coming closer yet.
'patrick, calum, this is sam' he says acting like someone was in front of us.
'sam, this one is patrick' he says pointing to the air 'and this one is calum'
'ha ha ha' i roll my eyes 'charlie if i was all a joke i swear...'
he looks at me more confused that ever.
'did you really thought this would be funny? gosh you're like a little kid' i laugh.
'n-no sam' he mumbles.
'well i won't waste this beautiful dress' i say grabbing his hand 'we are going to eat outside anyways'
'sam?' his foot are tied to the ground, i let go of his hand because he isn't moving and his voice sounds weak and afraid.
'please tell me you're seeing them' he closes his eyes. his breathing has got really fast and he looks like he could burst into tears at any second.
'seeing what charlie?' i'm so confused, i don't understand, is this still part of the joke.
it would be pretty fucked up if it was.
'SAM ANSWER THE QUESTION' he cries 'DO YOU SEE PATRICK NEXT TO ME RIGHT NOW OR NOT?'
'i-i... i think we should go inside' i panic. i feel like a total jerk. it was true, all this time he has been seeing someone who doesn't exist.
maybe that's the reason he is here. we have never talked about how we end up in this place.
'DONT TOUCH ME' he jumps away when i try to take him inside.
tears are rolling down his cheeks, he's having a hard time trying to breath but he doesn't let me help him.
'they are real, I KNOW THEY ARE' he sobs 'SAM' he calls me 'SAM?'
'i'm here charlie' i hug him tight 'it's okay, i'm here'
'nononono, it's not okay' he pushes me away and puts his hands on his head 'what's happening to me?'
'why are you doing this?' he yells to the air. 'STOP IT'
at this point i'm crying to. this is one of the worst moments of my life.
he looks so scared and lost, and i want to help him but i don't know how.
without getting him off my sight i walk back to the building and open the door.
'please help' i scream 'someone please'
when i turn around charlie is on his knees hitting the air with his fists closed.
he's going to hurt himself if no one stops him.
i run back to his side and hug him from behind, holding his arms and pressing them against his stomach.
'stop please' i beg 'you're going to end up hurting yourself'
'i don't care' he cries 'leave me alone'
i continue holding him but he's too desperate to get rid of me, and i'm not going to be able to do this for much longer.
luckily luke appears out of nowhere with a few more doctors and after taking charlie away from they drag him into the building.
i try to follow them but one of the doctors holds me back and tries to calm me down.
'he will be fine, don't worry'
'what happened? why was he shaking so bad?'
'he's having an anxiety attack, were you with him before it started?'
in that moment dr. thompson arrives to where we are.
'yeah he was just talking with me' my voice shakes as i speak.
'what were you talking about? did you say something that could have triggered the panic attack?' dr. thompson asks.
'he... he started introuducing me to his friends, but no one was there and i- i thought it was a joke so i told him i couldnt see anyone and then...' i burst into tears without ending the story.
'... i wouldn't have said anything if i knew he would react like this, i'm so sorry' i sob.
'it's okay sam, it's not your fault' dr. thomson assures me putting a hand on my shoulder, then he looks at the other doctor with a concerned look. 'tell them to sedate charlie, he's about to have a mental breakdown and we need to stop it'
the other doctor nods silently and walks away faster inside the room they took charlie in.
for a moment i'm able to see what's going on inside the room. charlie is fighting everyone ands trying to get rid of the two doctors that are holding him back. he's screaming something but i can't really understand what he's saying.
then the door closes and everything is calmed again.
the deafening silent surrounds me and leaves me alone with this pain in the chest that is so unbearable that it makes me collapse with the floor.
'i'm so sorry' i whisper before everything goes black.
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hiiii!! Guyyss RWYSO was amazing🙊 and michael dyed his hair blue for that night shsgsdgssg it was beautiful
