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Im going to be a dad

Jays pov -
Omg I knew that Erin had been acting a bet weird lately but I didn't expect her to be pregnant. Yes we had sex with no protection but a baby I'm way to young for that and my dad would kill me if he knew I knocked a girl up

I couldn't speak I just sat there on Erin's bed looking at the wall and the same though kept going through my head . I'm going to be a dad and try and be a good example for my kid.

I snap out of my thoughts when I see Erin crying in front of me so I pull her into my arms and run my hand up and down her back until she stops crying
" Erin are you sure your pregnant your not just late" I said hopeful
" no jay I am I've done so many tests and me and Kim went to the doctor this morning and I saw the baby and everything " I said
" ok well I'm going to support you no matter what Erin I love you and I know that this is scary and that we're to young but I know that I love you and that you will be a great mum " I said kissing her head

Me and Erin got into her bed before she fell asleep in my arms but I didn't sleep at all that night I just kept thinking about the baby and that I was never going to be able to be a father. When thinking about it I put my hand lightly on Erin's tummy and moved it around so that the baby could feel me

I didn't know how I was going to tell my dad and how everyone at school would take it but if I had to guess it would be bad and we would be the talk of the school for quite a while.

Kim's pov -
Oh god those girls saw me with nat and holding hands and kissing I'm going to get killed in school. I feel bad cause I just ran and left nat I could not have them saying anything else to me. Great the one good thing in my life is ruined the only person who makes me happy is probably going to leave me for some footballer.

When I got home I tried to stop crying so that Erin didn't hear me but thankfully for me her and jay were asleep in her room. When I got to mine I broke down in tears and when I checked my phone I didn't see any messages from Natalie

I ran to the bathroom and threw up as I was crying so bad. I want my mum and I hate them saying things about her as they have no clue what happened and how it hurts. When I Finished I make my way back to my room before falling on the bed and falling to sleep.

Natalie's pov -
When we saw those girls I felt Kim tense up before dropping my hand. The things they said about her mum must of really hurt as I know how much she misses her mum. But instead of staying she just runs away and didn't look back.

The girls smiled at me before walking away. I walked back to my house confused and thinking about what had happened and then realised that no one knew she was gay not even her dad and sister and that she was probably ashamed for people to see her like that with a girl

When I got in my mum was awake and gave me a kiss before I went up to my room and decided to call her but much to my surprise it just went to voicemail so now I knew that she didn't want to be with me.

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Next day -
Kim's pov -
I woke up late and instead of running to school I just decided not to go as I didn't want to be made fun of and let's be honest my dad would not notate if I was at home or if I was at school as he was never home.

I cried for the most of the day scared of what would happen tomorrow when I would have to go in. I looked to the box under my bed and kept trying to move my eyes away but gave in and pulled it out. I opened it and picked out a razor head and put it in my hand for a bit before pressing it slowly against my skin.

I didn't feel any pain anymore just a sort of relies a way for all the pain I was feeling to get out. I hated how I looked so what would a few more scars do. I cleaned the blood of the razor before putting it away and putting a long sleeve top on so that no one saw.

I put my head on my desk and before I knew it I had fallen asleep and didn't hear Erin or dad come home.

Natalie's pov -
When I walked into school the next morning I went to the table where we all meet and saw Adam and Kev sitting down so I went to join them
" morning how's you guys " I said sitting down
" good thanks how About you " Kev said
" good good " I said putting my bag down
" do you know where kimmy is nat " Adam asked
" no sorry didn't she message you this morning " I asked before getting up to walk to first class

Biology was so boring without Kim as I had to sit alone and I had no one to talk to. I checked my messages and saw that she still had not messaged so she must be trying to avoid me today. I started to write the work when I heard the girls behind me calling her names and making fun of her.

The day went so slow without her and I still didn't have a message so at cheer I went to talk to her sister to make sure that everything was ok with her
" her Erin how are you " I asked
" hi nat I'm good thanks yourself " she asked smiling
" I'm good do you know if Kim's ok she's not messaged me and isn't in school " I said
" I'm sorry I don't know I didn't see her this morning as I left a bit early I'll tell her to call you when I get home though " Erin said
" thanks see you later " I said as I walked over to Adam and Kev

When school Finished I had cheer so I wasn't able to go to hers after school but I knew that Erin would have her contact me so it would be fine. We were performing out national routine and I did it perfect and just wished that Kim was here to watch me.

When cheer Finished I walked home and called Kim again but just went to voicemail so sent her a message instead.

Voights pov -
We had finally Finished the case which we had been doing for weeks so I now had the weekend of where I could spend it with my girls. When I got home to door was locked so though both girls were still out but when I went into Kim's room to get her laundry I saw her with her head on the table.

I walked over to wake her when I saw she had mascara running down her face and was still in her pjs so she probably didn't go to school. I picked her up and placed in her bed with a kiss on her forehead before going to make her some tea

It was times like this I hated being a Sargent my daughter needed me and I wasn't there for her so she had to do it alone. I wish that Camille was here as she would have know what to do

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