Your one colson bakers daughters your the problem child compared to Cassie your twin sister. Read to find out ;)
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{ this book is close to a year old, most of it is most likely really cringe. }
"What's wrong" nessa said seeing the sadness in my eyes
"I've been keeping some things from you" I said looking up at her
"What do you mean" she said sitting beside me
"I have well had a twin sister she killer herself when we were 16 from overdosing and mads was her best friend and I left because I took what she said to heart she said that kyndell would be disappointed in me" I said choking back my tears
"Jae she wouldn't be disappointed" she said trying to comfort me
" yes she would nessa! What person would want a depressed druggie that prays that they were dead every night before bed!" I yelled at her while getting up
"What do you mean we've been clean together?!" She said getting up as well
"While you were in a coma I got high or some thing I took a ton of pills in hopes that I would die just like kyndell!" I yelled now crying
"Why didn't you tell me?!" She said sounding angry and sad
"Don't you see it nessa?! I'm a FREAK I've never been normal! I never will be! I'm a depressed freak that has to take a shit ton of pills to feel some what normal! I've tried killing my self almost everyday for the past two years because I've been to scared to get help" I said choking on tears with the last part
She didn't say anything but tears started pouring out of her eyes
"I JUST WANT TO DIE" I yelled out as I fell to the ground on my knees and sobbing my eyes out
Nessa POV
Hearing that made me cry even more
" I watched my mom die overdose at the age of twelve" I said taking a few steps closer
"My best friend was shot in the head and I watched him die at the age of 13" I said getting closer to him
"I've called 911 hundreds of times since the age of 7 because of all my dads overdoses" I said sitting beside him
"And I just heard the one person I can't imagine living without say that they want to be dead" I said as jaden put his head on my shoulder
We sat in silence for about thirty minutes
"Wanna get tattoos and get high at your house" jaden said sitting up
Fuck it
"Let's do it" I said getting up
At this point it's already 6 am so we drove to a tattoo shop and got a ton of tattoos
At home
We walked into the house and we got a ton of weed and we smoked for about an hour
"What do you think your doing" my dad yelled at high me and Jaden on the couch
"Don't even" I said looking him dead in the eyes
"Excuse me" he snarled back
" oh please I've saved your ass so many times from your ODS. And you just got out of rehab and I bet you and Travis drank and got high" I said standing up
His face filled with rage
"And you weren't even home when mom OD you were out with one of your friends. I had to watch her die" I said laughing at him
"Why are you laughing" he snapped back
" I'm laughing at the fact that your acting like this you have no idea all that I've been through have you" I said looking at him directly in his eyes
"Well why don't you tell me" he said sitting down on the couch
"Well I watched my best friend die in my arms at 13. You didn't even act like you cared. I was raped almost every day from 15 to 17 and you got mad at me when I called things off with him. Remember when you got drunk and told me that I should've been the one to die instead of mom?" I said choking on Tears
"I was drunk!" He said in defense
"Drunk words are sober thoughts" I said with tears rolling down my face
"Also I'm gonna move out" I said wiping my eyes
My dad nodded and me and Jaden went upstairs
We posted on instagram and went to bed
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