Chapter 4 // feeling guilty

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Day four

Tuesday

Allison left yesterday

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Allison left yesterday. I thought it wouldn't affect me because I am used to seeing therapists come and go but it did.

She has been the first therapist I didn't want to hurt, but when I saw her standing in my doorway when I made it clear to never come in my room I just snapped. My anger took over like it always does.

"You do realize that you just threw your last chance of freedom away not even after 3 full days!" Steve screams. He has been here for at least an hour reminding me that I am a monster.

Yesterday after the incident I heard Allison leave and I knew that I would never see her again. 20 minutes later I heard the door open again but by the heavy steps I knew it was Steve.

I prepared myself for the worst but even Steve didn't bother to come into my room to yell at me like he normally does. I think he really hoped this woman could change me and maybe deep down I thought that too.

"Can you listen to me!?" Steve asks as he snaps his fingers before my eyes.

"Just leave me alone Steve." I say tired as I want to stand up from my chair but Steve pushes me down again.

Just stay calm Bucky. Stay calm.

"Why can't you accept my help for once? Why can't you see that I just want my bestfriend back!?" Steve asks.

"The Bucky you know is gone, Steve. Just let him go, let me go." I beg and I can see his heart break again.

Steve wants to speak again but I interrupt him. "And last time I checked I never asked for your help and never needed it." I snap.

Steve sighs and runs his hand through his hair. "You don't know how lucky you are to have your own place here."

Is he being serious? I have been locked up in the same place for 3 years and I have to be thankful for that? Screw that!

"Lucky!? I haven't been outside for 3 fucking years! How do you call that lucky?" I ask angry.

"Language and you know it is for your own safety to stay inside." Steve explains. Safety my ass.

"Safety? Yeah right it's not like Hydra won't find me in The Avengers building because it is so well hidden." I say with sarcasm.

Steve only shakes his head by my sarcasm. "You don't get it, do you? If Stark and Fury return tomorrow you can say goodbye to your nice place."

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" I ask annoyed. My anger is getting the best of me again.

"I warned you that this was your last chance. Fury and Stark will place you in a cell to keep yourself and others safe and there is nothing I can do about it to change it." Steve explains and I think my heart missed a beat.

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