𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐏𝐈𝐒𝐓 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐓
This story takes place after Captain America: The Winter Soldier.
Bucky isn't longer controlled by Hydra, but he's left with a big trauma he has to deal with. That's why Steve wants him to follo...
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The next morning I woke up feeling cold. I try to find James' arms around me but without success. Still half asleep I turn around with my eyes closed and tap the space beside me also to find it empty. I groan as I am now obliged to open my eyes to look for James in the room.
I try to open them but a bright light prevents me from doing so. I blink a few times until my eyes are used to the outside world light before I scan the room. There is no sight from James and the panic voices in my head come in an instant back.
Where did he go?
He probably left you again.
No shut up, he didn't!
Then where is he, uh?
Probably looking for some coffee.
You really believe that sweetie? Just accept that he will always leave!
"Shut up, shut up, shut up." I keep repeating as I cover my ears with my hands. But whatever I do I can't block out the voice because it is in my head and I am never able to fight it alone.
My head snaps up the second I hear the door open of my room. James walks inside with two coffees in his hand. He has a big smile on his face but as soon he meets my eyes and sees me crying his smile disappeared.
"What's wrong?" He asks worriedly as he puts the coffees down on the table before making his way towards me. He rubs my tears away with his thumbs but more seem to fall.
"Are you hurt? Do I need to get a doctor? You need to get your medication." James rambles as he turns around to walk towards the door but I grip onto his arm for dear life and stop him.
"Please don't leave, don't leave me again." I say between sobs while I shake my head. I feel James tense. He sighs before climbing back into bed and wrapping his arms around me.
"I am not going anywhere, doll. I promise." James whispers as he strokes my hair with one hand and with the other makes circles on my back to calm me down.
I don't know how long we stayed like that but I know that I needed it. I needed to feel James' warmth again and I could finally cry my heart out with the person I trust the most and with the person I know would pull me back from the darkness. All I needed over these 5 years was his comfort.
I break away from James' embrace and he quickly rubs my tears away while he gives me a small smile. I take a deep breath before asking the question I have wanted to ask for a really long time.
"Why did you leave all those years ago?" I ask with an unsteady voice while I make eye contact with James. I see his eyes sadden and break before he looks away.
It is quiet for a moment until James grabs my face into the palm of his hand and gives me a long forehead kiss. I close my eyes and enjoy the feeling of his lips against my skin.
