Chapter 32 // grieving

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Day thirty one

Monday

I am in the kitchen making breakfast while Allison is still sleeping in my room

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I am in the kitchen making breakfast while Allison is still sleeping in my room. When I woke her up to take a shower together she acted weird and told me she had a headache and needed to sleep a little longer.

I know she is lying because I woke up in the middle of the night hearing her quietly cry next to me. I didn't move to let her think I was still asleep but deep down my heart was breaking for her. But eventually after one hour she stopped crying and fell back asleep.

Since I've met Allison I know if she wants comfort she will come look for it but if she has nightmares in the middle of the night or something is wrong but she shuts me out then I know that I have to give her that space and give her time to explain what's wrong.

First I was worried that I was maybe a little too rough in the shower yesterday but when she lied this morning about her headache I figured it out it is about something more serious and she doesn't want my comfort yet.

Just when I am about to take Allison's phone from the kitchen counter it lights up. I am not someone who checks their girlfriends phone but it could be her work so I take a quick glance at it and I get all the answers I need.

'Reminder: accident 5 years ago; pick up flowers at 1pm & call aunt L.'

Her parents died 5 years ago today. That's why she was acting so distant. When Allison first told me about her parents I was so afraid I was the one responsible for the accident when I was the winter soldier.

One night I stole Allison's laptop and looked up more about the accident. I was happy when the place and names were unfamiliar. It was just a tragic accident. There was a violent storm that night and their car slipped and ended up in the water where they drowned.

There is no chance I let Allison go outside today alone. I have to do something and be there for her today.

I am not ready for today, not ready for the explanation I am going to have to give to James, not ready to visit their grave again and not ready to call the only family member I have left

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I am not ready for today, not ready for the explanation I am going to have to give to James, not ready to visit their grave again and not ready to call the only family member I have left.

𝐁𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐲'𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐩𝐢𝐬𝐭 ✔︎ 𝐁𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐬 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 | 1Where stories live. Discover now