Rekindled Love

10

YOU won't truly experience happiness if you won't accept what was really meant for you.

There were always a sign for us to realized things but we decided to be blind.

There were few happenings that really could tell us that it's not for us.

Mga bagay na pinapakita na nga ng harap-harapan pero pilit pa rin nating iniiwasan at kinakalimutan.

I wonder, tama ba talagang magbulagbulagan na lang para maiwasang masaktan? Na para maiwasan ang sakit, pilit binabalewala ang lahat. But it's not really good to be like that.

We have the right to be hurt. We have the right to show to everyone how much we are hurting. Ang magbulagbulagan ay wala sa pagpipilian. It's not part of the option and will never be part of it.

I cleared my throat. “Excuse me,” was all I can say before I stood up and go to my room.

When I reach my room, I sat on my bed and sigh. Problems after problems, may katapusan pa ba 'to?

Bakit pakiramdam ko, pagkatapos kong maging masaya, may problemang kasunod? Why do I feel like, I can't experienced happiness?

Napaayos ako ng upo at kinuha ang laptop ko. What should I do now then? Watch movie? Tutorials? Read books? My life's boring.

For a moment, I want to sleep this bad feeling away. But when I'm about to close my eyes, my phone rang.

Cade Calling

It's Cade. My mind say's to not answer his call but my heart and hand disagree. I just found myself clicking the green button, which says ‘answer’.

[ Hello munchkin.]

My lips trembled. His voice. His voice really calms me. I don't know why but everytime I hear his voice, it really give serenity to me.

“Hi,”

I heard him sigh on the other line.

[ Are you okay? ]

“Yes, I am. Are you?”

[ Why do I feel like you're not? ]

Tinakpan ko ang bibig ko nang nagsimulang manubig ang mga mata ko. I really really hate myself. My tears are so shallow. I cry easily. I am weak.

“A-Ayos lang talaga ako...”

[ Do you want me to fetch you there? We'll go to my favorite place? ]

I wipe the tears that keep on falling. Kaya ko 'to.

When I look up on my wall clock, it's ten pm already. I guess it isn't too late. But the problem here is, will Mommy allow me to go out of the house at this hour?

“Okay. Just wait at the gate of the village.”

[ What? No. I won't let you walk 'til here. ]

Mahina akong natawa. Nagiging madaldal na siya, minsan. May mga araw pa rin kasi talagang para siyang nire-regla sa sobrang sungit. Kala mo babae.

“OA mo ha! Para namang sobrang layo, kaunting metro lang naman lalakarin.”

He sighed and chuckled. [ Okay. I'll wait here. ]

I smiled before ending the call. I'm at my happiest when I'm with him. That's why I'm afraid. Afraid of what will happen next. Of what will be the outcome of this impulsive acts.

This is the first time. He's the first time. I've had love him for so long. I've been admiring him from far for so long. And now that fate's giving me my chance, I don't think I can let it pass.