Rekindled Love

23

I TURN on my phone to see who texted me. My phone keeps on vibrating and I put it on a silent mode since my son's sleeping.

From: Mr. Salazar

Hey. . . Let's meet again.

My eyebrows furrowed. I set his contact name for formalities. He gave his contact last week. When we've met on the mall, after he found out my son.

To: Mr. Salazar

For what?

I didn't waited for his reply.

“Be, pwede pakitingin si Colt sandali? May bibilhin lang ako sa labas,” sambit ko.

She smiled and sat beside my son, who's sleeping on our bed.

“Sure Momshy! Kulang na nga lang, 'di mo ipahawak sa amin si baby kaya go kahit mamayang gabi ka pa umuwi sobrang ayos lang!” aniya at humalakhak.

Natawa na rin ako. “Alam mo naman 'yang batang 'yan. Sobrang napaka clingy.”

“Gora ka na,”

I kiss my son's forehead. And got out the room.

From: Mr. Salazar

Can't remember our last conversation, huh?

Umirap ako. He still haven't changed. He's still the moody one.

If you're wondering why we are seems so casual with each other. . . we are just grown up to be a mature one. But that doesn't mean that my anger faded, that doesn't mean that I already forgive him. . . them. Masakit pa rin hanggang ngayon pero mas pinili ko kung ano ang tama.

Mas pinili kong maging casual kaysa ang pairalin ang galit. And that's what I've learned when I became a mother. Anger won't do good on me. Anger will just destroy me.

And about my son, he still don't know it's his. Ang alam lang niya ay may anak ako pero hindi niya alam kung sino ang ama. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. I'm sure as hell he's not dumb right? Baka may idea na siya kung sino pero dahil galit ako sa kanya, hindi na niya lang sinabi.

Pero may karapatan ba siyang magalit sa akin? Niloko niya ako 'di ba? Sinaktan. At 'yon ang hinding-hindi ko makakalimutin.

To: Mr. Salazar

Fyi, Mr. Wala akong maalalang may pinag-usapan tayo.

I was just wearing my high waist pants and crop top partnered with sneakers. Nakalugay ang hanggang baywang kong buhok.

I don't have a work today. I graduated just by myself. Back then I badly want to take education as my course in college but things happened, I got pregnant with my son, so instead of pursuing the dream, I became practical. Mas inuna ko na lang ang kursong related sa strand na kinuha ko noong senior high school ako. I pursued business management and graduated.

I succeed and the fulfilling moment was that, nakasuot ako ng toga, graduation dress, nakasabit sa akin ang medalya at diploma na natanggap ko na hawak ko at kasama ko ang anak ko. Sobrang nakakaiyak na nga na nakapagtapos ako sa kabila ng lahat ng pinagdaanan ko, mas sobrang nakakaiyak at sobrang saya pa na nakatapos ako kasama ang anak ko.

Lahat ng iyak, puyat, pagod, sakit sobrang worth it. I got pregnant at the young age influenced by impulsive act and young love but I didn't regretted it all happened—especially sa part na may bagong dumating at naging kasama ko.

From: Mr. Salazar

I'm going to fetch you there. Where are you now?

My eyes grew bigger as I read his reply. What the heck is this guy thinking?