Rekindled Love

16

“LOCK the door after, Erie Valeena,” matigas na ani Mommy.

I sighed in response and lock the door in her office room here in our house. After that, I sat on the provided chair in front of her table.

She sit like a queen while raising her eyebrows. She's pretty intimidating with her face and eyes. And while looking at her face, I couldn't see any resemblance of my face. She and ate's the one who are look alike. So maybe that's why they're close enough, huh?

“What are we gonna talk about, mommy?” I started after a couple of silence.

Pinagsiklop niya ang kan'yang kamay at tinaasan ako ng kilay.

“Bold of you to assume that Caden's really serious on you, huh?” She cockily said.

Pinanatili kong matigas ang tingin sa kanya. I need to act like I'm not affected with her words. Because I'm dead tired crying. Sawa at pagod na akong kinakawawa niya. I don't care anymore even if she's my mother. If she is.

“I'm not assuming anything,” matigas na ani ko.

She chuckled and fan herself using her hand.

“What a stupid girl. I didn't raised you to be like that. Hindi inaaraw araw ang pagiging tanga, Erie. But in your case, you made it a daily routine.”

I gritted my teeth and clench my fist. You have to remember that it's still your mother, Erie.

Kailangan ko pa ring isaksak sa utak ko na kahit gusto ko ng manakit, nanay ko pa rin 'yan kahit hindi nagpaka-ina sa akin.

“Ano ba talagang pag-uusapan natin, Mommy? Look, I'm tired from the trip, I want to sleep already.”

“You're tired? Why? Anong ginawa n'yo ro'n? Exploring each other's body? Tapos ilang buwan lang nito ang lilipas, ano ang kasunod? You'll get pregnant? You're disgusting! If that will happen, remember Erie, I will abandoned you!”

I stood up, puno ng sakit sa dibdib at puno ng luha sa mukha pero nanatiling walang ekspresyon ang mukha.

“I'm sorry if it's sounds disrespectful but I have to say this, how dare you! Gan'yan na lang ba ang tingin mo sa 'kin Mommy? Na ginawa ko siyang boyfriend para baboyin ako? Kilala mo ba talaga? Kasi kung oo, alam mong hindi ako gagawa na makakapagsira sa akin! Bakit ba kasi My! Bakit ba kasi parati na lang si ate ang nakikita mo? Let me tell you in case you forgot! I. Am. Your. Daughter. I'm not just some people there! Anak mo ako!” ramdam ko ang bawat diin sa salita ko.

Tumahimik siya at nag-iwas ng tingin. I can sense she's trembling.

“Get out,” mahinahong aniya na ikinagulat ko.

I thought she would stood up and slap me for talking back without her consent.

“M-Mommy,” nanginginig na sabi ko nang napantantong sumagot ako.

“I said get the freak out!”

I shook my head while tears keep on coming down.

“M-Mommy.. I'm sorry.. I.. I didn't mean to talk back,” I pleaded.

I can see tears running down on her cheeks.

“I said get out Erie before I could say words I might regret. Please. Parang awa mo na. Umalis ka na kung ayaw mong saktan na naman kita.”

I trembled and turn my back. Bakit pakiramdam ko may iba sa nasabi ko kaya nagkagano'n siya?

HUMINGA ako ng malalim. I went down after we talked.

Hinanap ko sa baba si Caden. Hindi ko kasi alam kung umuwi na ba siya o nakikipag-usap pa rin kay ate. He didn't texted me so that means he's still here.