Rekindled Love

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IF you're inlove with someone, you would do everything for him, right? But loving someone doesn't mean you'll give your all to him. That's what I've learned from my own parents.

I could see how dad loves my mom that he gave his all to her. That he sacrifice everything for her.

My father loves me so much. He did everything for me and still doing everything for me. My mother... doesn't want me.

And that's what I'm thinking everytime I'm alone. Bakit ayaw niya sa 'kin? Bakit mas gusto niya si Ate? Is it really because of what she achieved at the young age? Is it my fault that I'm not like her?

I'm still asking myself when will the comparing stop? It's suffocating already. It's being toxic again.

I sighed and feel the peaceful air of the beach. It's our last day of vacation here. Pagkatapos, babalik na naman kami sa realidad kung saan maraming hadlang, maraming ayaw at maraming gulo.

Nasa duyan kami na nakadikit sa puno ng niyog. Cade's sleeping on my lap. He looks so peaceful while he's closing his eyes.

“Bwiset, ang gwapo gwapo mo!” inis sa sabi ko at hinaplos ang pisngi niya.

Nakakainggit ha. He has this thick eyelashes na curvy. He also has this thick eyebrows na hindi makalat. Pointed nose, red lips and beautiful eyes. Nakakainggit talaga, ba't ang pula ng labi niya? I saw him back then, smoking yet he has this healthy lips? Nasaan nga ang hustisya?

“Hindi ako makapaniwalang boyfriend ko 'to,” natatawang sambit ko habang pinagmamasdan siyang tulog.

Parang dati lang, sa malayo ko siya pinagmamasdan pero ngayon, nasa malapitan na, nakahiga pa sa hita ko.

“Hindi magandang makipag-usap sa tulog, munchkin,” paos na sambit niya.

Muntik ko na siyang masapak dahil sa gulat. He chuckled and open his eyes.

“Caden!”

He hug my waist. Sumiksik siya sa tiyan ko at humigpit ang hawak sa baywang ko.

“Baby,” he whispered.

I comb his hair and lean down to kiss his forehead.

“Yes?”

Ang mapupungay niyang mata ay nakatingin diretso sa aking mga mata.

“Mahal kita,” mahina ngunit punong-puno ng pagmamahal na sabi niya.

I brush his cheeks. I can't help but to feel lucky. Ayaw man sa akin ng ina ko. Kaayawan man ako ng ibang tao at itakwil man ako ng mundo, ayos lang sa akin basta mayro'n akong katulad ni Cade. Na handa akong damayan at tanggapin sa kabila ng pagkukulang ko.

Talikuran man ako ng lahat, 'wag lang siya. Iwan man ako ng lahat, 'wag lang siya. Dahil masisira ako kapag nawala siya. Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko kapag iiwan niya ako.

“Babalik na tayo bukas,” malungkot na sabi ko.

He held my hand and brought it into his lips and kiss it.

“Do you want us to extend our vacation? Malayo pa naman ang enrollment mo.”

I chuckled and shook my head. “Hindi na. I still have to prepare my papers for the enrollment so we have to go home tomorrow.”

Sa susunod na pasukan, fourth year college na ako. And I'm afraid na kapag simula na ng klase ay magiging busy na ako. Magiging busy na kami pareho. Siya, sa board exam at ako dahil graduating.

“Whatever makes you happy, munchkin.”

I buried my face on his chest. Whatever makes me happy. He's the one who's making me happy.