Main pairing: Sakusa Kiyoomi x Miya Atsumu
Other pairing(s): None
Warnings: Mentions of intrusive thoughts
Time: Post-timeskip
Notes: None
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*In Sakusa and Atsumu's private messages*
Sakusa: hey atsu
Atsumu: Hey Omi :D
Atsumu: is everything alright?
Sakusa: i need to tell you sth
Sakusa: and i'll understand if you want to break up with me after this
Sakusa: but i haven't told anyone and it's been eating me up and i'm scared that the people i love will push me away or see me differently and i think i've known it for a while but today i went to the psychologist and they confirmed it and actually saying it out scares the shit out of me and i know i'm rambling but i'm really scared that you'll leave me but i don't know what to do without you bcs ily and
Sakusa: fuck i was going to delete half of that before sending it
Atsumu: woah
Atsumu: baby calm down
Atsumu: it's okay
Atsumu: i won't leave you no matter what :)
Sakusa: i have severe ocd
Sakusa: i got the diagnosis today
Atsumu: oh.
Atsumu: i don't have much information on ocd
Atsumu: can you explain it for me pls?
Atsumu: it's ok if u don't want to
Atsumu: i can just look it up online
Atsumu: i just know that it can vary from person to person so..
Sakusa: it's more in the area of cleanliness, tidiness and intrusive thoughts
Atsumu: intrusive thoughts?
Atsumu: how so?
Sakusa: um.. basically my brain likes to imagine disturbing scenarios
Sakusa: they can vary.. like sometimes my brain just goes "did the ceiling just creak? imagine what it would feel like if it fell on top of you" and continues to imagine the ceiling falling over me for 15-20 times
Atsumu: that's awful, love.
Sakusa: and sometimes my brain thinks of disturbing sexual thoughts that are personally unacceptable
Sakusa: like in the middle of an exam
Sakusa: but it's not like horny
Sakusa: and more like my brain trying to annoy me
Sakusa: and i can't get it out of my head
Sakusa: and then there's cleanliness
Sakusa: i'm sure you already know about my mysophobia
Atsumu: ofc i do love
Sakusa: and then there's the routines
Sakusa: like my going to school routine
Sakusa: if i don't go to school on time it causes me great anxiety
Sakusa: or like i have to push my chair all the way into my desk or sth bad will happen
Sakusa: ....yeah
Sakusa: so if you want to break up with me, i totally understand
Atsumu: are you kidding me?
Atsumu: ofc i won't break up with u omi :)
Atsumu: ily
Sakusa: you do?
Atsumu: yup!!
Sakusa: oh...
Atsumu: i would've said "it's ok if you're not ready to say it back" but considering that u said it before me (in your vent paragraph), it's not that
Atsumu: what's up love?
Sakusa: i just... never though that someone could really love me
Sakusa: i mean... i've had boyfriends before (2) but one of them broke up with me because of my mysophobia and the other said that he "only wanted to touch the untouchable"
Sakusa: so.. ig i just didn't think you would actually love me
Sakusa: tho i should've expected it, considering that you gave me all the space i needed without seeming offended in any way :)
Atsumu: omi, baby, i'm sorry but your exes were pieces of shit
Atsumu: i love you
Sakusa: i love you too
Sakusa: but are you sure you don't want to break up with me?
Sakusa: i'll totally understand if so
Sakusa: being with a mentally ill person must be tough
Atsumu: you should know that
Sakusa: huh?
Atsumu: babe i have adhd
Sakusa: HUH?
Atsumu: I THOUGHT YOU KNEW?
Sakusa: NO??!?!!??!?!
Atsumu: OMI ASJKDHASDKAJSD
Sakusa: JSDASKJHASDKJASHD
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