Dear Sapnap,
I'm so sorry I'm leaving you. But you'll be better off without me. I promise. I promise with all my heart you'll feel the relief. You'll be okay. Take a breath, take some time to think, just take some time to relax. You chased after my problems while running away from yours. You don't deserve to feel like shit, yet I made you feel like it. And I'm so sorry for not taking action sooner. I should've isolated myself sooner so you wouldn't hurt as much. Enough about me. You're the reason I stayed this long. The reason I had hope. The reason to live. You are the thread of life I had left. And I couldn't be more thankful. When I thought I couldn't do it anymore, I would always remember you. You are the bright stars I talk to at night, even though I pretended they were the last resort. As I think about it more, I talked to the stars because I knew they wouldn't respond and let me know I was in the wrong. And as I write this, I now know I was in the wrong and I couldn't realize that. If you had told me I was in the wrong, I would've gone ballistic. I hate being in the wrong and you know that. I still talked to you though, just in different ways you weren't aware of, until reading his of course. And sometimes, I think it's good you didn't know. I think you know more than I thought you knew, but I choose to ignore that just so I think you aren't struggling as much. I'm sorry I'm not good at expressing how I feel, I know that annoyed you. But it was for the greater good. Remember that for me? Also, remember I love you more than the stars in the sky. More than dancing in the rain. More than listening to music. More than looking out the window while I romanticized my life. I love you oh so much. Words couldn't begin to explain it, never ever. As I sit next to said window writing this, I glamorize my life one last time. I love you Sapnap. To my best friend, savior, and forever brother. You were the home and sibling I always wished for.
Take yourself back to the night we met for some closure, okay?
~
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psithurism | DNF
FanfictionGeorge, the town's Wild Child. He's known mainly for his guilty behavior around the neighborhood, but also his filthy rich parents. He's mastered sneaking out, but one day, the cops stop the party and arrest George. As soon as his parents find out...
