Don't f*ck this up - BlackHill

EIGHTEEN

Natasha sighed as she closed the bathroom door behind her. She leaned against the sink counter, watching the open space in the bathroom. Natasha turned around to face the mirror. She took a deep breath and glanced at herself through the mirror.

I want this, I want to forget this and be with Ria. But if she can't forgive me, it's gonna hurt. It's gonna hurt bad if we get closer on this mission and break up after that. I hope that I make a decision that I won't regret later. Everything I want to do is be with Ria, she has been all I have thought about for the last few days, weeks even months.

Natasha took a deep breath when she had made her decision.

Maria was standing on the balcony, looking down to the streets. People were rushing in every direction, the night fuss was about to begin. Maria took a sip from the champagne she'd found from the suite. She let her thoughts run wild for a moment.

Was it too much to ask? Did I scare Nat off, I hope not. I just want to be with her so bad that I'd really want to try this. I just don't know how it'll go down if I still can't trust and forgive her after this mission. I miss being close to her, she gave me the comfort I was craving for so long. I fell too close, too quickly. I just hope these few days we could try it out.

Maria heard Natasha step to the balcony, she kept her eyes to the sky, waiting for Natasha to start the conversation. Natasha was quiet, she took a step closer to Maria, already sensing the feelings between them. The unspoken words, the deep care and love for each other, the extreme lust for everything to happen.

Natasha gathered all her courage and hoped that this wouldn't make anything hurt more. She softly grabbed Maria by her waist and turned her around. They looked deep into each other's eyes. The moment was unbelievable, just the two of them glancing at each other, feeling everything all at once.

Natasha leaned in to give Maria a soft kiss on her lips. Even that small gesture made both of them feel warm. Maria leaned in to continue the kiss, as she reached Natasha's lips, Natasha pulled away. She traced her hand from Maria's neck to her side and felt Maria's hand pull her closer from the neck.

Their lips found each other once again. The kiss became intense, all of their feelings were floating around them, making the moment perfect. Maria's hands stroked Natasha's neck slightly making her feel chills across her back.

Their kiss grew deeper every second. The great need to be as close to each other as possible. Maria's tongue slid into Natasha's mouth, making the whole kiss worth every second they had been apart. Natasha leaned in more and more even though their bodies were already tightly together.

"Did you" Natasha sighed between kisses, "have something" she kept kissing Maria's lips gently, "to drink" she finally finished her sentence. Maria pulled herself farther away from Natasha, and looked her in the eyes smiling playfully.

"This is a suite Nat, of course there's something to drink...actually there's a lot to drink!" Maria said and laughed slightly. "And there's a bar downstairs," She continued and kissed Natasha on her forehead quickly. Natasha let a wide smile appear on her face. Everything about the woman standing in front of her made her feel calm but slightly nervous.

Natasha gazed at Maria, deep into her eyes and just felt everything inside her go back where it all was when she got to kiss her the first time. Natasha couldn't believe that this was really happening, she didn't want to get her hopes up but it was hard to keep those emotions at bay.

Maria leaned in to kiss Natasha before walking inside.

"Do you feel comfortable going back there?" Maria said as she walked to see what there was to drink in the suite. "Of course, you didn't make it feel uncomfortable. You handled me really well." Natasha said and smiled frankly.