Screwed Up Mess

Two

Lilly's POV

I woke up with a massive headache. I rub my eyes and sat up. I look around to see I'm not in my room. I look next to me and find a sleeping, naked Niall. Memories of last night come crashing into my mind and I realize, I slept with my best friend last night. I wanted to kill myself. I cheated on Josh. I love Josh. Not Niall. I can't believe this. I guess Niall heard me moving and I heard him groan. He mumbled, "I have the biggest headache." He sat up to see I was also naked.

I saw him checking me out a bit and quickly ran to get dressed. Niall said in a low voice, "Did something happen last night?" Did he not remember? I hope so, but I had to tell him. He deserved to know. I nodded. "Yea. We kinda... You know... Had-"

He cut me off, "I thought so. Its pretty vague, but being that we are both naked, I put the pieces together." I was a bit relieved yet worried.

I commented, "Oh well it didn't mean anything. You're my best friend and I was drunk. I love Josh a lot and would never hurt him like this and mean it."

Niall said in a bit of disappointment, "I know. I do remember you called me Josh before you feel asleep."

I stood there a bit speechless. Did I really? Wait, why did he sound disappointed? I shook it off and said, "Oh. I don't remember that. Well I better get going."

"Don't you need a ride?" I nodded, realizing I did. He stood up and got dressed. We went downstairs and I slipped on my shoes. I turned around to get my purse and saw Niall was ready to leave. He walked past me and opened the front door. I grabbed my purse and followed Niall out.

The car ride was silent. An awkward silent. I tried to remember most of the night. I can't remember what provoked us to do it. Was it him? Did I say something? Why did he say I called him Josh?

I didn't realize we arrived at my house until Niall said, "Lilly, we're here." I said in a low tone, "Thank you." I grabbed my purse and headed inside.

On my way in, it hit me that Niall called me Lilly. He hasn't called me that in ages. He always calls me Lil, even when we are fighting.

I walked inside and was shocked. Josh, my mom, my dad, and my 2 siblings were sitting in the living room. Josh immediately got up and engulfed me in a hug. I questioned, "What's going on?"

Josh let go and said, "When you didn't come home last night, you're parents called me, but I didn't know where you were either. We were all worried sick, especially when you didn't answer your phone."

I completely forgot to tell them I was at Nialls. I made up a lie and said, "I'm so sorry. Since it was late and I didn't want to wake you, Niall let me crash at his house."

They all seemed a bit relieved. My 8 year old brother Ryan whined, "Can I leave now?" My mom nodded. Ryan and my 12 year old sister Mackenzie followed him.

My mom turned her attention back to me, "When your father and I get back from work, we will figure out a punishment." I nodded; figuring that was coming. Both of my parents left for work which left me babysitting my siblings like I did every Saturday.

I sat on the couch and Josh sat next to me. He said, "You could smell the alcohol from a mile away." I moved on the couch so my back was leaning against the arm, my feet were on top of Josh's, and I was facing him. I responded, "Really?" He mimicked my position, but rested his legs next to mine.

He nodded in response to my question and stated, "Im sorry about last night. I regret fighting with you and I didn't mean anything I said."

I rubbed his leg and said, "Baby, don't worry about it. I know you didn't. And I'm sorry too. I love you."

A smile spread on his face and he said, "I love you too." We stared at each other for a little while until I realized I was still in my dress and needed to shower. I stood up and headed for the stairs. Josh called out, "Where are you going?"

I turned back to him and said, "Going in the shower. Go play with Ryan or something." He got along great with the kids and was always playing with them. Josh also loved helping me babysit them.

I went into my room and grabbed jeans that had a few rips, a white t shirt, and a plain black hoodie Josh gave me. It is actually his, but last year at our friends bonfire, I was cold so he gave it to me and would never take it back.

I headed over to the bathroom and turned on the water. I took a 10 minute shower which I spent a lot of it just standing under the water and regretting everything that happened last night, but I couldn't possibly tell Josh. I decided to not tell anyone.

I got out of the water and quickly changed. I brushed my teeth and blow dried my hair. I headed into my room and applied some makeup that consisted of black eyeliner, mascara, grey eyeshadow, a little bit of blush, and strawberry scented pink lip gloss. I threw my hair up in a messy bun and sprayed my favorite fruity perfume on. I put on bright, pink neon socks and finally went downstairs.

When I reached the bottom step, I saw Josh was sitting in the same position on the couch only this time, he was watching TV. I cleared my throat to get his attention which I succeed. He turned and a smile was plastered on his face when he saw I was wearing his jacket. He stood up and walked towards me. He put his arms around my waist and said, "Lets see if your breath still smells of alcohol."

He pecked my lips. I felt guilty that the last person who kissed me wasn't him, but I didn't show it since I instantly kissed back. He pulled away and he said, "Just a little bit. That lip gloss sure tastes good."

"I wore it just for you, knowing it's your favorite."

"It better be for me and only me." My heart sank at his words. I know I did something really bad and don't know how long I'll be able to hide it from him.

Our moment was interrupted by someone knocking on the front door. Josh let go of me and sat back down on the couch in his previous position. I went over to the door and was completely taken back. "N-Niall?"