Screwed Up Mess

Four

Lilly's . POV

Am I really that bad of a person? I thought we worked things out. I need someone to talk to. This is all way to much for me to handle with on my own.

I pulled into the driveway and got out of the car. Ryan ran for the door eagerly since he had to use the bathroom. Josh got out and said, "I better get going home and tell my dad everything is alright." I nodded and hugged him. We shared a quick kiss and I headed for the house while he went to his car.

I unlocked the door and went inside. Ryan ran past me and straight for the toilet. I went to my room and plopped down on my bed. I sighed and thought about everything. I need someone to vent to and usually that's to Stephanie, Brooklyn, Eleanor, and Danielle. I decided to send a group message inviting them all over now. Luckily they all said yes and they were on their way.

To past the time while I wait for them, I decided to take out my laptop and go on Twitter. I was scrolling through tweets when I heard the doorbell. I quickly ran downstairs and opened the door to see Danielle. I hugged her and welcomed her in. Ryan came from the den and a smile grew on his face. All my friends adored him and Ryan even had a crush on Danielle. They hugged and he scurried on back into the den.

Soon the other girls came and now we were all sitting in my room. I sat on my bed along with Stephanie, Danielle sat in my desk chair, and Eleanor and Brooklyn sat on my chest underneath my window. I took a deep breath and told them everything. I told them about the party, what happened at Niall's, arriving home, how it felt with Josh, and the texts I received.

When I finished speaking, I looked around and saw all them in shock. I told the entire story without stopping so all the information was sinking in. We sat in silence for a little bit until Eleanor said, "Wow. I cant believe... Wait, all them sent messages? Including Louis?" I nodded. That put her in more shock since they were dating, but she couldn't make it to the party. I saw Danielle was shocked, but also angry. She said, "I cant believe Liam did that." She is dating Liam so I understood her anger as well.

Stephanie said, "Whoa. Wait, we cant worry about the messages right now. Lilly, you cheated on Josh, with your best friend!"

I tilted my head down in shame, the tears filling in my eyes. Brooklyn stood up and said angrily, "How could you do this to Josh? He cares so much about you! He trusted you with Niall!"

By now I was sobbing like crazy. Hearing it hurt, a lot. I know I screwed up, big time, but I thought my friends would care. I felt someone rub my back and start saying sweet and soothing things. I finally calmed down and looked up to see all the girls around me except Brooklyn. I asked curiously, "Where's Brook?"

They looked at each other and Stephanie said, "She stormed out of here after her blow up."

Eleanor added, "I guess you don't know do you?"

I shook me head, confused at this point.

Danielle said, "She likes Niall a lot."

I was in complete shock. Why didn't I know this? "Oh my goodness I had no clue! I'm on a roll aren't I? What a shitty person I am."

Stephanie said, "No you aren't."

I stood up and spoke in a stricter and louder voice, "Yes I am! I love Josh with all my heart and now I cheated on him with my best friend! Niall told me he likes me a lot and I acted like a total bitch about it. Now, one of my best friends HATES me because I slept with the guy she likes! What else can I possibly do?"

They sat there speechless. After what felt like forever of silence, Eleanor said, "Listen sweetie, I know this is hard, but you were drunk. You even said that you thought he was Josh. If it makes you feel better, I promise I won't say anything. And I won't even talk to Louis about what he did. Even though he was completely wrong."

Danielle and Stephanie said in unison, "Same."

I was relieved I could trust them, "Thanks, I'm a little worried Brooklyn will tell, but hopefully she won't. Now what am I suppose to do about these messages and what about Niall?"

We had another moment of silence. I knew this was a hard question.

Eleanor broke the silence, "What do you think is best right now?"

I thought for a moment, "I think to just leave him alone and wait."

Danielle said, "That's good. Eventually Niall will text or call you or something."

"Thanks guys. I'm so happy I still have you." They stood up and we shared a group hug.

Our hug was interrupted by someone knocking on my door. We let go and I went over to the door and opened it. My mother was there and I gave her a quick hug, "Hey Mom. Mackenzie is at Lindsay's house and as you can see, the girls are over."

She nodded, "Ok. I just wanted to let you know I'm home. Since your father isn't home, we haven't discussed your punishment, but I can tell you now, you aren't going out with your friends."

I needed to be with them. Especially now. I went in my room and told the girls I'll be right back. I walked out of my room and went to my mom's room and found her lying down. I asked, "Can't you just take away my laptop for the week? Please."

She sat up and thought for a minute, "I guess that's reasonable," she paused, "But you also have to give me your phone when you are at home. So give it to me now and if and when you decide to go out, I'll give it back."

I nodded, "Sounds fair. My phone and laptop are in my room so hold on."

I ran over to my room and grabbed my phone and laptop. I quickly deleted my text messages just in case if there was any information of last night or anything else I didn't want her seeing. I walked back into her room and handed it to her.

When I went back into my room the girls were looking at me as if I was crazy. I asked, "What's wrong?"

Eleanor said, "You just took your laptop and cell phone and left the room."

"Yes I did. That's my punishment, but I get my phone back when I go out."

They nodded. Danielle said, "We were gonna go to the mall if you wanted to come."

I nodded, "I'd love to get out."

They stood up and Stephanie said, "Oh and we might get our nails done."

I nodded and walked over to my under garment drawer where I also keep my money. I grabbed $50 and put it into my purse. We all walked out of the room and I suggested, "Why don't you guys go downstairs and get ready while I get my phone." They nodded and disappeared downstairs while I went to my mom's room.

I saw my mom sitting on her bed on my laptop. I asked a bit annoyed, "Why are you on my laptop?"

She answered casually, "On Facebook. So you going out?"

I nodded, "Yeah I'm going to the mall. Can I have my phone?"

She handed it to me and said, "Be back home for dinner. Dad invited his boss over and they have a son around your age."

"Ok Mom. Love you."

As I was walking out I heard her say, "Love you too." I put my phone in my purse and met the girls in my foyer. I slipped on my shoes and suggested, "Why don't I drive?"

They all nod and got into my car. Stephanie sat next to me and Danielle and Eleanor sat in the back. Stephanie decided to blast the radio the second I turned on the car. It was playing Beauty and a Beat which is one of our favorites. Especially Justin Bieber who we all have a major crush on. We all start singing along and were having a good time.

(A/N) This chapter was a little boring, but it will get better.

So Eleanor and Danielle do look like their real girlfriends. I had to include them! I love them so much!!!

I need to think of some celebrities who should be Stephanie and Brooklyn.

Also I'm trying to post every 3 days. I may extend to 4. Depends on how busy my week is. But i'll try.

Sorry for short chapters. They are always shorter then I expect.