Screwed Up Mess

Nine

Lilly's POV

"Why her? Am I not good enough?" I asked with tears forming in my eyes. We were in a vacant parking lot in the middle of the day. I don't know why or what brought me there, but when I arrived Josh was sitting in the middle. I got out of my car and kept asking him why he slept with that girl.

He wiped his face and looked at me, he said with a shaky voice, "I-I'm sorry. L-Lilly I m-miss an-and need you."

I crouched down next to him and wiped a tear away. I said sweetly, "Josh, I miss you too. I regret sleeping with Niall. But you messed up too. We have two options. Work through this or move on and find new people."

He nodded and said, "We need to work through this. I need you."

I hugged him and said, "I need you too." I kissed his cheek and stood up. I put my hand out and said, "Lets go home Babe."

Ring! Ring! There goes my alarm interrupting an amazing dream. I wiped a tear that most have escaped in my sleep. Boy did I miss Josh. But I had to push that thought aside since I gotta get ready. I checked the clock that read 6:02.

I went to my closet and picked out an all see through, black lace, thick strapped tank top and my oversized light pink sweater with sleeves up to my elbows. I also grabbed dark denim skinny jeans and some undergarments and went into the bathroom. I took a quick shower, changed, brushed my teeth and hair, and lastly brushed my hair.

I went back into my room and put on my curling iron. While I waited I put on my ipod that played music softly while I put on eyeliner on the bottom lid, mascara, and light pink eye shadow. The curling iron was ready and I curled my long brown hair in a half hour.

After I finished I check the clock to see it's 7:03. I put on my black combat boots and headed downstairs where Mom was making eggs and toast and Dad was watching the news while tying his tie. Soon Mom had 5 plates made for Dad, Mackenzie, Ryan, herself and I. She shouted as I poured a cup of coffee for Dad, Mom, and I, "Cmon Ryan and Mackenzie!"

Ryan came down in his pjs since he didn't have to be in school until 9 while Mackenzie was ready to go since her bus came at 7:40. I had to leave the house at 7:20 since I go to the Dunkin Donuts right down the street from the school with all my friends then get to school by 8.

I quickly finished eating and went upstairs to brush my teeth one last time and put on pink lipgloss. I put my phone in my purse and grabbed my backpack then headed downstairs. I said goodbye to everyone and went into my car.

I arrived at Dunkin Donuts in 15 minutes and went inside to find everyone that usually comes was there except Brooklyn. I sat down and asked, "No Brooke?"

They shook their heads. Stephanie said, "She didn't know if she could handle seeing you."

"Really? Over a fight? Pathetic."

They looked at each other as if there was another reason. Eleanor said, "Josh was at a house party on Saturday and so was Brooklyn. They were drunk and well... did it." So what Zayn said was true. With my best friend?

I took a deep breath, "I knew he slept with someone, but not Brooklyn!"

Danielle tried making me feel better, "She feels awful. She told me she knows exactly how you feel."

I couldn't hold in my anger, "This is different! I dated Josh! She knew I loved him! She never said a damn word about Niall!"

Stephanie leaned over the table, "Lilly we're in public."

I took another deep breath, "Fine lets just go."

They nodded and we headed to our cars. When I got in mine, I lightly cried, but realized I still had to go to school. I quickly fixed my eyes and luckily didn't ruin my makeup. I pulled out the parking lot and drove down the street to school. I had 3 minutes until I had to be inside. I grabbed my bags and waited by one of the benches where we always wait for each other to walk in together.

Finally Stephanie, Danielle, and Eleanor arrived and we walked into school together. Luckily we all have the same homeroom, but that also includes Brooklyn and Josh. And Niall.

We went to our lockers quickly. I put my backpack on the hook and grabbed my books for math, health, drama, and English.