Screwed Up Mess

Thirteen

Josh's POV

Kelly's party is pretty boring. There isn't many drinks, most people are dancing, but that isn't my scene, and the other people are getting high and I'm not into that either. I'm trying to have a good time, but its pretty hard. Especially without Lilly with me. I'm still waiting around for Zayn and Harry to come on in.

I heard the front door open and my eyes went wide when I saw who strolled on in. Lilly. And she looked so hot in her tight, red dress that she knew drove me crazy. But the moment was ruined when I saw Niall right behind her.

LILLY'S POV

I walked in and was hit immediately with the smell of sweat, alcohol, and weed. The smell was strong, but I loved it. I knew I couldn't drink, and I never touched drugs, but I could still have some fun sober and clean.

I dragged Niall straight to the dance floor and started grinding with him. His hands rested on my hips while mine locked behind his neck. We were swaying to the beat for what felt like forever. He kissed my neck and spoke into my ear, "Zayn and everyone are here and I wanna go."

I nodded and we broke apart. I followed him into the kitchen and found Zayn, Liam, and Danielle there. We all greeted each other. Liam said after finishing his beer, "I'm gunna go dance. C'mon Dani." She nodded and followed him out.

Zayn spoke, "I wanna go too. Lilly do you wanna?"

I turned to Niall and he said, "Go right ahead." I kissed his cheek and walked over to Zayn. He grabbed my hand and lead me to the dance floor and grind in the same position as Niall and I.

He asked me, "Are you and Niall together or something?"

I shook my head and he further questioned, "Do you like him? You guys sure act like somethings up."

"I don't know. Why do you wanna know?"

"Well Lil, you got Josh waiting on you..."

I interrupted, "I think I'm done with him."

"Oh, well in that case," he kissed my neck, "there's something you gotta know." I nodded. His kisses were soft and tender and made my heart skip a beat.

"Lil, I think I'm falling for you." My heart stopped. I don't know if I like him? Do I? He's really sweet, but I'm still deciding between Niall and Josh. Can I add another guy to the mix. Before I could respond, he spun me around and crashed his lips to mine.

It took me a few seconds for me to respond. I did and his lips felt so good.

But this is wrong. I pulled away unwillingly. I spoke, "Zayn you're so sweet and I'm not gunna lie, you're hot, but I just don't feel that way."

He smiled and said, "I'm sorry. I'm stupid and shouldn't have done that. Please just forget what happened. Let me just get you back to Niall."

I felt bad, but I looked at him as one of my best friends. Nothing more. Nothing less. We walked back into the kitchen and found Niall, Harry, and... Josh?! This could not be happening. Josh can't be with Niall.

I went straight to Niall. He looked at me and smiled. He wrapped his arm around me and asked, "Did you have fun?"

I nodded and looked at Josh and asked, "Whatcha doing over here?"

He responded, "Just chatting. Can we talk?"

I questioned, "Again?" I had no interest.

He nodded. I pulled away from Niall and followed Josh outside. We sat on the curb and he spoke right away, "Lil, I know we said we'll be just friends, but it pains be more. We both screwed up, but I want to fix this. I want you back. Please."

I sighed, "Josh, I love you and always will, but I just don't know. We both messed up bad, but I realized we've been together so long. Maybe it's just time to move on."

"I'm not ready and don't think I ever will be. You are who I want. Please. I will get along better with Niall. I promise. Just please Lil. Please take me back."

Before I could respond Brooklyn, of all people, walked on over in black skinny jeans, black and white stripped crop top, and black pumps. She looked cute, but the thought of her makes me sick. Maybe that's how Josh feels about Niall?

She spoke, "Josh! I'm so happy to see you. Come inside babe and dance with me."

He shook his head, "Brook I'm busy and don't even like you. Don't call me babe and get the fuck away before you make things worse."

She rolled her eyes and walked right inside. Josh stood up with watery eyes and spoke, "Lillianne I want you to be mine and when I want something, I will get it. And you don't want to make things difficult. I will get angry. Lilly you are mine understood?!"

He was getting angry and it was frightening me, but I was done with Josh. I have Niall and I now could have Zayn, but I don't want Josh. I had enough and I was going to get that through to him.

I stood up and said in a stern voice, "I am done Josh! D.O.N.E! And if I can't get that through your thick skull remember I cheated first! I loved you, but I've seen I could have better! Much better! People who don't treat me like shit! You act caring one minute then boss me around the next! You don't care about any one, but yourself. You pretend to be something you're not and I'm sick of it! You act like a piece of shit to impress people, but that's not you and until you fucking change, leave me the fuck alone douche bag!"

I was storming off inside the house while Josh screamed back, "YOU DIRTY SLUT! GO FUCK YOURSELF!"

I felt my eyes starting water. I knew I didn't mean what I said. How could I be so stupid?! I had my chance, but blew it and there's no chance of getting him back now. I might as well just die!

I walked straight over to Niall and demanded, "Take me home."

I could smell the alcohol on him, but didn't care. He slurred, "Wwwhhhaaatttt?"

"I said, 'Take me home!'"

Zayn cut in, "I'll take you home Lilly. He's been drinking and I don't want to risk you getting hurt with him driving."

I nodded and followed Zayn to the car. We were outside and walking down the driveway when I heard someone scream, "Zayn don't bother with that whore!"

I turned to see Josh with a bunch of his friends and alcohol bottles in their hands. I shouted back, "Who was the one begging for this whore two damn minutes ago?!"

Josh just starred while his friends laughed at him. Zayn smiled and lead me around the block. We stopped right in front of a motorcycle. I got nervous. "I-is this it," I questioned.

He spoke while climbing on, "Yep."

"And I'm suppose to get onthat? In this dress? And heels?"

"Yep," he patted the spot behind him, "Come here Lilly."

I sighed. I knew I wasn't going to win this battle. I climbed on as best I could in a tight dress. I clung to Zayn's back. "I better not die," I said bluntly.

"I'd never let that happen." He started up the bike and held him tighter. I've never been on a motorcycle before and I've always had a slight fear ever since my uncle got into a crash on one of these things and I got a minor concussion.

He interrupted my thoughts, "Where we heading?"

"I guess my house."

He nodded and started to ride off. I closed my eyes tightly. I didn't want to see. It felt like forever, but when he stopped, I went to get off. I looked around and saw we were still in the middle of the road at a red light.

I blushed a deep red and sat back down. Zayn laughed and said, "We're almost there Babe."

Did he just call me Babe? Josh was the one who called me that. Wait, no more Josh! I did like being called Babe again. Especially the way Zayn said it.

We finally arrived at my house and I had to admit, I was pretty darn happy to go to sleep. So much crap happened today I just need a break!