Where my Heart Lies

Foregone

"Ryan?"

"Yeah, me." Ryan said with an bored expression. He didn't even care to wipe his tears.

Jessica nevertheless felt a strange kind of satisfaction once again, knowing that it was Ryan who was crying. He was, as a matter of fact. "What happene-"

"Get out of my sight you bitch. I am not in the mood."

If this girl right here was on the verge of breaking down a while ago, now, she could also feel the urge to slap this guy right then. But she kept her calm. If something was making Ryan cry, she had to know for sure. Maybe I'll start praying to whatever it was.

"Easy. I didn't say anything. Had a bad day too. Though, I admit seeing someone else in my state of mind felt good."

Ryan didn't reply to her words. So she continued.

"I remember you being the coolest ever in school. Never seen you like this, just because you are an old classmate, I wanted to make sure you were fine."

"STOP BEING MY MOM YOU DUMB BITCH."

Jessica raised her hands in surrender. Moments passed by without any words being exchanged. These two humans just sat next to each other, and although an intense dislike remained in both of their hearts, they were more than happy for the shared company.

"How's uni going?" Ryan asked out of nowhere.

"I don't know, just fine maybe."

"Good for you."

"So, really, what is it?"

"It's nothing. I fucked some things up."

"Broke up with your girlfriend?"

"Got better things to do than that."

"Guess you don't wanna say." Jessica muttered in a low tone.

"You're really dating the Liam guy? I wonder what kind he is if he likes you."

"It's got nothing to do with you."

"Getting Feisty now are we."

"You bet."

"Do you still like me?"

That question took Jessica by surprise. She had always believed, that no matter what she did or said, she would hardly be a worthy of becoming a thought in Ryan's head. Maybe he does care whether I like him. 

"I don't I guess."

"Finally, you're on the right track."

"It's just I regret all of it."

"You regret liking me, or confessing to me?"

"Neither or them. Just that I spent years into that feeling. It was a futile investment of emotions. Although I never believed you or anyone else might fall for me, but then again, I wonder if all my efforts are turning into waste."

"So then you do like me? You still want, even if the tiniest bit, to be with me?"

"Not that either. I don't know how to explain it. You're now like a trophy to me, that I must win for all those things I put at stake. But then I don't like the game anymore. So I don't want to participate either. It's fucked up."

"You're a psycho."

Jessica had expected something like that from him. That was his usual self.

"Thanks."

"You wanted to know what happened with me, right?"

"And you didn't want to say."

"Listen up, coz now I wanna say."

"I am all ears."

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"So, all of it comes down to this Larry guy?"

"Hmm."

Jessica had a subtle smile on her face. I would have thanked Larry if not for today.

"Are you gay?"

Ryan looked at Jessica in disbelief as he gave her a death glare.

"Okay, I am leaving. That's enough talk with someone who can't bear the sight of me."

Jessica left after waving at Ryan who didn't bother to look at her once. Whatever came out of Jessica's mouth was like poison to him. He just hated her that much. But something she said got Ryan wondering. Reasons-

1. He had kissed Larry.

2. He had liked it.

He scratched the back of his head in frustration. What if I really am-

Ryan was horrified.

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Liam was on his way home along with Larry, who seemed pissed after he heard in detail the events of the day.

"YOU! YOU DUMBASS! YOU TOLD HER YOU DIDN'T MEAN ANY OF IT? WHAT DO YOU EVEN MEAN BY THAT?"

"Calm down, I am driving right now. Besides, I said what I meant- that I didn't mean any of it."

"You do like her though. And she likes you to-" Liam gave a side eye to Larry "-apparently."

"I know she does. Just that, I don't know. This won't work."

"This won't work." Larry repeated the words in a mocking tone. "You do not have one good reason for pushing her away."

"I have. I do have. My graduation is in a few weeks. After that I am leaving the city. But she has to stay. I have seen her, observed her. She can't do long- distance. Even though we might both like each other, it's not the best time."

"Okay. I get it. But you could have told her all of it. You said you were attracted to her. But that is how romantic relationships work. There has to be-"

"The damage is done. Stop talking about it."

The sky was turning cloudy, it could have rained any moment. Liam had the windows down, so the silence that now filled the space was also growing cold. 

"Are you heading to London? After graduation?"

"Yes. The company would be soon listed, I have to be there for it."

"Okay."

Once they were home, Liam went straight to his room and jumped into bed. Wondering if he had done things right. Perhaps he regretted it. He didn't know. He knew nothing but the fact that he missed Jessica. That he would miss her for a long time. That he had missed her.

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Short chapter :) 

P.S.- My lead character, i.e. Jessica is not a kind, considerate fairy who would not feel jealousy, or hate, or remorse etc. She has most of the messy emotions every human has! She can plot her revenge too :P