All that Remains

Of Ignoring and Rejecting

There was a velvet boy

Whom held out his hands to me

Palms up, he offered an opportunity

Something for me to take or leave

Instead of looking at those hands

I stared up at the sky

Pretending that I didn't see

Knowing it would fade

There was a girl

One who showed me the same love

As the bright pink she kept her hair

Full of smiles and sunshine

This bubblegum girl, too

Offered her hands

But faced down, eager

To lock our fingers together and run

As was the same fate, that one lay

I feared to take, to give in turn

Living too much in the future

To appreciate what was then the now

And time passes

Leaving a trail of slime for me to poke at

To wonder what could have been

Only for these fantasies to die

So now I lie awake

After a single goal reached

No one needs me and I sink

Down to the depths of the ocean

And it's alright.

I may be stuck down here

My feet weighted by boulders

But at least I can see my family

Smiling at me through the bleariness of water

Though all the things I wanted to say

Become garbled bubbles when I try to speak

It's enough to see them smile.

It's not their fault they cannot hear me.

And so when the water becomes too much

And so when the rocks become to  heavy

I do not mind to be the last one to be untangled

From the vines that tie me to my heavy demise

Now I sit down here

In the dark

Alone

Waiting as the others fade

As they swim up to the surface

I'm trapped in the depths of the bottomless blue

Too far from the red I want to be