Reconnected // Luke Hemmings

CH 4

LUKE P.O.V.

I sat on the edge of my bed, staring at the wall filled with posters in front of me. I was deep in thought. If I told him, he'd kill me. If I don't tell him, no one will ever know and I won't die. But I want to be with her. But Calum likes her a lot. I don't want to hurt anybody. It just happened, I just started liking her from the first time I laid eyes on her. You know what it feels like to have a small crush on a guy or a girl you don't know out in public and you never see them again? Same with me, expect I know her, and I'll be seeing her a lot more.

Love is complicated. Love is stupid. And love can fuck you up in a matter of seconds. Which sucks.

"Luke, you alright?" Calum asked, Tori right behind him. A ping of jealousy hit me. I put on a fake smile.

"I'm fine." I said quietly. Calum smiled and walked away. Tori still stood there though, with a worried expression.

"Calum I'll be there in a minute." She called before sitting next to me.

"I know what I'm fine means, I was there once. What's wrong?" She asked putting her hand on my shoulder, sending chills down my spin.

"If I tell you, it will hurt everybody." I said.

"I understand if you don't want to tell me, but I'm here if you ever want to talk. Don't take me the wrong way and think I'm some crazed fan." She said. I smiled weakly at her.

"Thanks." I said. She nodded before kissing me on the cheek.

She walked out, leaving me with butterflies. She kissed my cheek. Punch me in the face I'm turning into a girl. Eh, being a girl can't be that bad. Wait, nevermind.

I got up and walked into there living room, where Michael and Ashton were sat talking with each other. I saw Calum and Tori outside. She didn't look happy at all really, neither did Calum. I sat down next to Michael and crossed my arms under my chest.

"Is something wrong? I asked Tori if you were okay and she's really worried about you." Michael said.

"I'm fine." I lied. I'm not fine at all.

"Something's bugging you." Ashton said. Michael nodded in agreement.

"I'm fine okay?" I said. They nodded with a sad look.

"Hey uh, how much does Calum like Tori?" I asked.

"A lot, why?" Michael asked.

"Uh no reason." I said. "I'll be in my room."

I quickly rushed into my room and locked the door. I sat on the edge of my bed, and shoved my face in a pillow. I cried my eyes out. I don't know why I'm beating myself up over this. I should have just told them instead of keeping it in. Now I have to keep it in even longer and then when they find out, our friendship will be over.