Reconnected // Luke Hemmings

CH 13

TORI P.O.V.

"Why the hell are you here?" I asked keeping my head low, avoiding eye contact. I mean I did just hit Calum.

"To fix things." Michael demanded.

"Fix things? I don't think you can fix this. Scars last forever you know. Scars hold horrid memories that won't go away. You can't just move on and pretend this didn't happen when you have scars." I said.

"What do you means scars?" Ashton asked. I looked at Luke and he looked at me. He put his arm on my knee. I rolled up his sleeve and they walked over.

Ashton's eyes widened and filled with tears. He stumbled back and fell down.

"No. This is all my fault." Ashton cried hugging his knees in.

"Ashton this is not your fault." Michael said.

"Yes it is! I told Calum that him and Tori are dating. If I hadn't had told him this wouldn't have happened." Ashton said through his tears.

Everyone stayed silent. I felt tears fall again. Luke shook his head.

"No. No. No. Please don't cry. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. Please don't cry." Luke said. I put my head down.

"Look at me." He said lifting my head up lightly, making me look into his eyes.

"I'm sorry. I promised you wouldn't do it again, so I won't. I'm fine. I'm right here. No need to cry. It won't happen again. I know this all seems like a blur but we'll get through it. If I'm going to stay strong, then you have to also." He said. I nodded my head lightly.

"This will all work itself out." He said with a small nod. I smiled and nodded back.

"I'm sorry." Ashton said. "I never meant for any of this to happen. I'm so sorry. I take back all the things I said in the car. You're like a brother to me and I care about you. What I said was totally uncalled for."

"It's okay." Luke said.

"Bros?"

"Bros." Luke smiled at Ashton.

"I'm leaving." Calum murmered before leaving.

CALUM P.O.V.

I just got back home and lets just say I wasn't in the greatest mood. Not in a mad mood, but a sad one. I guess, I shouldn't be like this. I fucked up.

I walked upstairs and slowly walked into Luke's room. I looked around and then walked further. I sat on the bed and looked around. This feels weird. I used to be happy when I was in here, Luke and I would joke around about Ashton's purple shirt. Make up stories about the future. Whenever I asked him about the past he would instantly become depressed. I see why now.

Sometimes I would hear him cry in the middle of the night. I didn't think anything serious. I should have comforted him. I was a horrible friend.

I looked in the corner and stood up. I walked over and picked up the stuffed penguin I gave Luke when he turned 18. A tear slipped and I wiped it away with my sleeve. I sat back down on his bed and cried.

I caused Luke to cut himself. I feel so horrible. I told him he was worthless and he believed it. I can't believe I did that. I'm an awful person. I don't even know why I said that, the words just slipped out of my mouth. If I say sorry, I'm afraid he won't forgive me. I feel like a failure.

"I'm sorry." I cried. I saw Luke's guitar, his new one Ashton gave him, in the corner as well.

When Tori told me Luke hasn't been smiling and laughing like he normally is, I instantly hated myself. I glanced at the guitar and decided to pick it up.

I strummed a few cords before singing.

"Where are you and I'm so sorry

I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight

I need somebody and always

This sick strange darkness

Comes creeping on so haunting every time

And as I stared I counted

The webs from all the spiders

Catching things and eating their insides

Like indecision to call you

and hear your voice of treason

Will you come home and stop the pain tonight

Stop this pain tonight."

"Dammit. Why am I such a fuck up?" I cussed under my breath.

I should've said sorry instead of drag this out.

Why did I run away? I don't know.

Why didn't I say sorry? I don't know.

Why am I such a fuck up? I don't know.