The misfits (8th grade)

The whore

Wow don't I feel great about myself NOT I'm actually both pissed and hurt
so yesterday one of my friends um called me a sin due to me being gay he asked me "do you believe in god" i said yes and he said "then you know that your going to hell because your a sin" and stuff and this pissed me off and I'm still like in shock which is why this hurt even more so I'm sitting at home today watching a movie when one of my friends texts me and says like is it true what happened in the bathroom and this kinda threw me off like what was he talking about then he goes in more detail and say is it true you gave a guy a bj in the bathroom I don't answer right away and when I do I say why do you ask and he says my other friend the one I trusted to keep my secrets told him this pissed me off more and I said so what if it is now you know drop it and he's all why'd you keep it from me and why'd you do it I told him again to drop it and he didn't so I go and tell the friend that told him like why the hell she told him and she's says "he's your best friend I thought he knew" and I tell her why would I tell him out of all people he always has judged me when I'm in the wrong and yes sometimes it's for the best but I just can't talk about it like God doesn't they know I'm hurting don't they see what they are doing three of my friends hurt me and u know they will see this and be like oh look mark want attention again or oh look Mark is at it again and I don't care I was told that my friends would turn on me a long time ago and when I finally convinced my mom that was not true they actually do hurt me yes we are the friends that tell each other everything but not this this is my deepest secret and now I've told you now my pain is back now my friends will look at me and see a whore