I HAVEN'T GOTTEN OUT of bed for two days now. clay hadn't texted me, george hadn't texted me, taylor hadn't texted me. my world was crashing and falling apart.
i woke up tuesday morning to a knock on my door. i groaned and threw the covers off of me. i threw my hood over my head and went to my front door.
i unlocked and opened the door and found no one there but a dozen roses and an envelope on the ground. i picked them up before closing my door.
i went to my kitchen and set the roses on the counter and opened the envelope to find a card with a dinosaur on it, my favorite.
clay's messy handwriting wrote:
haze,
hey baby, i know i have left you in the dark for the past couple of days. i have been trying to figure out how to make it up to you after ditching you. i want you to know that i don't regret anything that happened. i am so glad it happened. i love you more than anything in the world. i know it's hard to believe those things after i up and left you the morning after having sex. i just want you to know i was scared. scared that it was going to ruin everything, scared that you were goung to regret it all. i now know i should have sucked up my feelings and talked it out with you. this is my fault, i take full blame. i told you i would never leave you and then i did. text me if you want to talk. i love you hazel.
- clay
a tear fell out of my eye as i blinked. i set the card down the put the roses in a vase and set them on my dining table.
i went to my room to find my phone and instantly texted clay.
hazel! can you come over later tonight? i want to talk about everything but in person. :)
clay! what time do you want me over?
it was already 2, and yes, i had just woken up. i needed to shower and clean up a little bit.
hazel! 5? we can order food
clay! sounds perfect! i will be there at 5 :)
a smile landed on my face as i quickly started picking up trash around my room and throwing it away. i then made my living room look more neat, after i made my bed.
i picked out some clothes and went to my bathroom to shower. i shower, washed my face, brushed my teeth, blew my hair dry, straightened it, then did my makeup. afterwards i changed into my new outfit.
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i walked into my room at 4:45. i sighed and did some touch ups to the look of my room and living room.
soon enough clay was knocking on my door. i walked over and opened the door. he stood there wearing gray sweatpants, a black hoodie, and another backwards hat.
i smiled at him and opened the door wider for him to come in. he walked in and closed the door behind him. i looked up at him and he looked down at me.
"hi" i spoke quietly making him smile
"hello" he said in the same tone
i wrapped my arms around his torso and hugged him. he wrapped his arms around me and hugged back. we let go after awhile and i took his hand to the living room.
we sat on opposite sides of the couch and looked at each other. he looked down after i sighed and started playing with my ring.
"i'm not mad, just upset" i started off by saying
"it's okay to be mad hazel" clay said
"i know, but i'm not." i said and he nodded. "i just don't understand why you left. i know you were scared. i was too. but i wasn't going to kick you out"
"i guess our brains work differently. mine told me to get the hell out of there because i thought i already messed everything up" i nodded at his words
"it really hurt clay" i said honestly
"and i'm really sorry" he said.
we both went silent and i sighed. i got up and moved towards him, i sat next to him and burrowed into his chest making him wrap his arm around me.
"what do you want to eat?" i ask pulling my phone out
