Married To My Sister's Boyfriend

MTMSB 06

"How I wish that it's you who died, Sana ikaw nalang ang nagkaroon ng sakit at ikaw nalang ang nawala!" L-l-l-in-c-col-n-n........

Doon na bumuhos ang mga luhang gustong kumawala sa mga mata ko, sobrang sakit na marinig ang mga salitang iyon sa bibig ng lalaking minamahal ko kahit na ang mahal niya ay hindi ako.

Tumayo ako at hinarap si Lincoln kahit pa para akong dinudurog dahil sa sakit na aking nadarama, "A-a-lam ko naman na iyon din ang nasa isip mo...." huminto ako at tumingin sa kanya ng diretso kahit pa lumuluha ako, "Patawad kong ako ang nabuhay at si Sierra ang nawala.....I'm sorry....." after I said those words I suddenly run out of that terrace not even minding that he's standing in the middle of the way.

You can call me stupid or whatever you want, but I don't care. Tawagin niyo na akong Tanga, Martyr, wala akong pakialam! I love him...... At kahit na araw araw niya akong saktan sa pamamagitan ng mga salita ay hinding hindi ko siya iiwan.

Tumakbo ako pababa at tumungo sa silid ko, agad ko rin iyong ni-lock at napasandal sa may pinto ng aking silid. Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko dahil sa sakit, sanay na'ko dito eh. Sanay na'ko pero bakit masakit parin ng sobra? You'll be okay later Sienna I'm trying to calm myself trying to calm my heart. Trying to ease the pain but I can't. Mas pipiliin ko pang masugatan physically dahil agad iyong naghihilom, pero ang masugatan emotionally? It takes years para maghilom ang mga sugat.

I get use to it but why the hell I'm still hurting?! What's wrong with me?! am I really that sensitive?! am I really that over reacting?! hell!

"T-t-tama na ang iyak Sienna.....m-m-as lalong maiinis sa'yo si Lincoln. Don't cry..." Hikbi ko at pilit na pinapakalma ang sarili.

Pinunasan ko ang mukha ko gamit ang mga kamay ko at unti unting lumayo sa likod ng pinto, naglakad ako patungo sa kama ko at doon umupo. I looked away and take a deep deep breath, inhale.....exhale.... I'm okay....... Sienna will be okay later.....

I suddenly get up and run out of my room as I heard Lincoln's car outing from the garage, "Be careful my love......." I whispered in air. That's the thing I can do, saying 'be careful' afar from him. After Lincoln's car gone in my eyes I sighed deeply and walked towards to the, the stairs that for terrace.

As I get there, I get the food and my laptop then go back downstairs. Now I'm gonna alone here again, and thinking if where Lincoln will going to sleep. Kung nakakakain ba siya bago matulog, kung may k-k-k-asama ba siyang matulog-ba't ba lagi nalang siya ang iniisip ko?! Paano naman ang sarili ko? Why it's always him that I care for? Why it's always him that Im thinking of? Because I love him.......

If love is a poison, then I already got poisoned....

Okay, what am I thinking again?!!

I sighed deeply and cook for my dinner, it's already past 5. Being alone in this big mansion is better than to go shopping or do whatever that will just going to give me a deja Vu of Sierra. Me and Sierra loves to go shopping, loves to eat outside, loves to go to the Beach, loves to travel and loves the same man.......

Nasa highschool kami noon ng makilala ko si Lincoln, he's the type of every woman that dreaming of. Siya iyong tipo ng lalaking kahit na mayaman ay hindi mayabang, iyong kahit na kilala at malaki ang share sa university ay hindi gumagawa ng kalokohan. Siya iyong tipo ng lalaki na mahilig sa lahat ng sports, lahat yata ng sports ay gusto niya.

Lincoln is handsome with brain and talent, he caught my attention. Hindi dahil guwapo siya, kundi dahil sa panloob niyang an-yo. I'm the shy type of person, ayaw makihalobilo sa iba, I have my own world. Me and Sierra are not in the same university in our highschool days. Me and Sierra are super close, hindi nga kami mapag hiwalay. No secrets, we knows each other's secrets and that Secret is included my secret love for Lincoln Del Fuego.......

She knows everything about Lincoln and that's because of me..... Hanggang sa isang araw ay hiniling niya kina Mom and Dad na lilipat siya sa school para may kasama ako and I agreed to that. Dahil wala namang magiging masama doon, mas ikakatuwa kopa dahil makakasama ko ang kambal ko. But then I was wrong, when she transferred into my university, everything did changed.......

Ginawa niya lahat para mapalapit kay Lincoln, later on she confess to me that she have a crush on the man I love and that's Lincoln Del Fuego. All I want is my twin sister's happiness, I supported her, I'm the one who's cooking all of the food that she's giving to Lincoln. I'm the one who's making all of the letter that shes giving to Lincoln, and that's giving me a heartache, secretly......

But then I'm happy for my twin sister that she and Lincoln finally are in a relationship.....I know that I don't have any right to feel jealous and pain because I'm just a nobody but Sienna Baldwin. Masaya ako na masaya ang nag-iisa kong kapatid, iyon lang ang gusto ko wala nang iba, ang makita siyang masaya na kahit pa ika durog ng puso ko ay ayos lang.

Wala naman akong pinagsisisihan sa lahat ng iyon eh, dahil naging masaya ang kambal ko. Iyon lang ang gusto ko, ang kasiyahan ng kapatid ko at ang kasiyahan ng lalaking mahal ko na mahal din ng kapatid ko.

They said
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It's better to give than to receive......

At iyon ang ginawa ko, I give and give and give, "Hinihiling ko lang na sana ay 'wag mapagod ang puso kong magmahal at umintindi......."

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TYPOGRAPHICAL AND GRAMMATICAL ERRORS AHEAD!!!!!

A/N: wish me luck to my exam on Monday!!!!

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