Siege - Sci-Fi (M/M)

18. Now I know

Izander

I stood there, completely dumbfounded. Not one word could form in my brain at this moment in time and I was grateful in fear of saying the wrong thing. What exactly do you say to that?

'Fuck, I shouldn't have done that should I? I've messed up.' Jax was panicking now. 'Shit.'

Still no words were coming to me. This was all such a shock - but what did he expect, revealing all that. I was slightly afraid words would fail me forever now.

'I'll go, leave you to your thoughts...' Don't go! Why could I not say that out loud, he was leaving for christ sake! 'Goodbye Izan.' No!

Come on, say something you simpleton... 'You love me?' It was barely audible but Secaro are thankfully great at hearing. He happened to stop at my pathetic attempt at saying something but he didn't turn around so I tried to say something else. 'An-nd you want to b-be with me?' I was sounding like a child now - great.

Finally, I got to see his face and it looked hopeful. 'Is that all you care to say? I show you all of, well, everything and you only wonder about the loving you part?' The laugh that followed was soothing to my ears. 'I thought I lost you.'

Jax walked straight up to me and embraced me with the warmest of hugs. This felt good, like it was meant to be. 'Pmfh crelemblr furderter.'

'Oh sorry I was squeezing you a bit tight I guess.' Jax loosened his grip so my face was no longer mushed into his chest.

'Thank you,' I laughed. 'I love you to, I hope you know that.' He had to know. 'It was just taking me some time to adjust to the new information and I had no idea what to say.'

'I understand.' He paused. 'Do you have any questions? I showed you pretty much everything but I've never gotten a human perspective of course, so you might be questioning something us Secaro wouldn't think about.'

Did I have any questions? I think I was mainly in shock and denial, focussing on Jax instead of the problem. I hadn't actually processed a thought about the reveal and didn't know where to begin.

'I take your silence as a 'holy mother of all that is human, I don't even know where to begin' kind of reaction, am I right?'

'How'd you guess?' I laugh. 'I think I have one question though. When?'

'Nobody knows, not even the Secaro in power.' I was disappointed to not get an answer but then again, maybe it was better to not know.

'I understand.' Ok I didn't really understand but I don't think Jax even understands fully. What else could I ask now I had the chance? My brain was starting to work again and I had a feeling this would be my only opportunity to talk about it.

I went through the basic questions. What - well I knew that, he just showed me. Where - obviously Earth. When - he didn't know. Who - us. How?

'Ok I have another question but I think your answer will be similar to the other - how?'

'Your thinking is correct - we don't know. It could happen in a multitude of ways, some we've thought about and others we couldn't dream up.' I nod to his response.

There was nothing left for me to ask. I found out something huge about Secaro and Earth and I could barely ask a question about any of it - typical.

'I'll answer something you may not have thought of just yet. If that's alright with you.' Yes, please, anything! I nod to him. 'Ok well every one of us know and we are under strict orders not to reveal it - so you cannot let anyone know you know. No humans know, not the President or Queen or anyone.

And I'm sure you have noticed how inter-species couples disappear sometimes so I guess that is when the human knows and tells someone - and I have no idea what happens to either of them so please please don't reveal it.'

Feeling the magnitude of what Jax was doing by telling me made me love him even more if that was possible. I took this moment to kiss him.

I quickly crashed my lips to his but slowed it down into something more meaningful - after finding out what I did, it made me realise just how important our kisses were. I think he could feel what I did because he was reacting just as passionately.

A hand crept up my back and landed on my neck, pulling me in for more. I happily responded and started grabbing for his clothes. Who cared if we were on the ship, we were going to have to reveal our relationship anyway now it was serious.

We were quickly naked and writhing around on the bed, feeling the heat radiating off one another. I rolled on top of him and gave him kisses down his neck - grateful of this distraction.

Pushing me down, Jax took the lead and made up for lost time at the hotel by showing me just how tender and loving he could be...

It wasn't until it was all over, many hours later when we decided to sleep that reality hit me.

The Secaro had saved us from our stupidity, but they could not save us from the inevitable. Earth was doomed once again and at some point in the future we would be wiped out - just like the dinosaurs, just like the Secaro and just like every other humanoid creature that ever lived before us.