College Affair

Chapter 7

Josie's P.O.V.
    It's been about another month or so and I feel like I've known these girls all my life by now, me and Lizzie. That is, except Hope. I feel like I've gotten closer to her but Lizzie hasn't. Why does she even give me the time of day? She doesn't to anyone else except her family, so why me of all people?

    It was morning and I was woken up by someone yelling. When I was awake enough to realize who it was, it was Hope. I get out of bed, quickly got dressed, and walk down the stairs to see what all the yelling was about. Once I made it down, I see the other girls, including Lizzie, all standing nearby watching and listening to Hope. Hope was standing by the front door and a girl on the other side. The girl looked as if she was going to cry from how Hope was yelling at her. What the hell is going on? Why is Hope being a bitch again? I haven't seen her this way with anyone in the past months I've known her. Yeah she might say something smug, bitchy and cold to someone but never full on yelling like this. "P-please Hope. I just want to join your sorority, I'll do anything." The girl begged and Hope wasn't having it. "Get the hell out of my face!" Hope yelled. "B-but Hope, please. I've changed. Just me a chance please." Changed? What did this girl mean? "I will say it one more time. Get the hell away from me and never speak to me again!" Hope yelled and slammed the door in the poor girl's face before she could say anything. She turned towards her and she looked full on pissed. If looks could kill, this one Hope had, definitely would wipe all of us out in a second. The others didn't say a word. They were scared. Me on the other hand? I was upset with her that she yelled at someone like that. I thought that I could finally call Hope a friend but I'm not so sure anymore. "What the hell was that?!" I yelled as Hope walked past us. The others tried to pull me back but that didn't work. Hope turned back around towards me and gave me a glare. "She wanted to join my sorority and I said no." She said, acting as if what just happened wasn't as bad as it actually was. "You yelled in her face for no reason! All she wanted to do was join! You could've her a chance!" I yelled at her, clearly pissed off. How did she do this to me? She made me feel so upset but at the same time, I felt awful for yelling at her, even though I knew she deserved it. No one has the guts to stand up to her, besides me, but when I do it, it makes me feel bad. It's like I can't stay mad at her for too long and I couldn't understand why. "It's my sorority, my decision, so drop it." She said clealy pissed but not yelling. "Why were you such a bitch to her?!" Again, saying that to her, made me feel awful, even if it was true. "Oh right. Go ahead, call me a bitch all you want!" She said and got in my face. She was close, close enough I could feel her breath against my lips. Why did I want to close the gap? Why was all this yelling making me hot? Did the heat turn on, or is it me?! "But don't question why I don't accept certain people into my sorority! I have my reasons that you and no one else needs to know, got that!" I couldn't stand her but at the same time, I think I'm craving her. "Now shut up, before you're out of this house." She said coldly but not yelling. Before I could say anything else, she turned and walked off to, I'm guessing, her room upstairs. I groan loudly and leave the house, slamming the door behind me. I did hear Lizzie calling my name before I slammed the door but at the moment, I didn't care what she had to say. Why was she such a bitch to that poor girl? And what did she mean about changing? No! I need to get a certain brunette out of my mind and that heated moment. How did she manage to make me hate her but want her all at the same time? There's no way I'm falling for her right? I mean she's been so nice towards me and I've actually seen her smile and laugh, when we're alone, unlike when we're around the others. What came over her this morning? Luckily it was the weekend so I had no classes, so I had the chance to just walk around town and forget all about this morning, but that clearly wasn't happening. And for a reason, I couldn't explain.

Hope's P.O.V.
    I wake up this morning and instantly get greeted by one of the people, I never wanted to see. I hated that she was in my school but I wasn't going to be a complete bitch and go to my daddy and get her kicked out. Then the rumors would be true and I didn't want that. But she just had to show up to MY house, asking to join MY sorority. Oh hell no! She stood at the front door, begging me to join. She talks about being changed and everything but I can't believe it. Nor do I want to risk it. I never ever wanted to see her again but this is happening right now. "Get the hell out of here Dana!" I yelled. I didn't care if the girls heard. This girl, along with a couple others, brought out the worst in me and it was happening, like as if someone snapped their fingers and it triggered me. After a bit of her begging and my yelling, the girls were all behind me, watching my every move. They didn't have the guts to jump in. Once I really had enough, I slammed the door in her face and turned around to see the others looking scared, well except Josie. She started yelling at me. Who the hell does she think she is?! She doesn't know my reasoning so she shouldn't be assuming it's just me being a bitch because I want to. Eventually I got in her face and was close enough to feel her breath. Even though we were yelling at eachother, I couldn't control my eyes as they trailed down her face to her lips. Her perfect. Pink. Supple. Lips. Focus Hope! She's yelling at you. She called you a bitch. I can't be thinking about her that way. All this yelling was making it very hot in here, which was probably just because of how mad we were at eachother. That's all it was, right? After a bit of yelling at eachother, I finally had enough and walked up the stairs towards my room. I slam the door behind me. I walked over to the empty canvas and threw it across the room, making it hit the wall and destroying it to where it can't be used. I just had the urge to break something and that's what I did. I can feel tears welling up in my eyes from the memories coming all back at once. I throw myself onto my bed and bury my face into my pillow so no one heard me crying. I feel pain from the bad memories but I also felt awful. I didn't understand why but I felt awful for being a bitch towards Josie. I've been a bitch to a lot of people and yes I've felt bad for it because I never wanted to become this kind of person. But with Josie.. I felt worse than I have ever and I didn't know why. My mom wasn't right was she? Do I like Josie? I mean she saves me from Landon when he goes too far but I barely know the girl. And love at first sight doesn't actually exist does it? No, not possible. I just have to forget about Josette Saltzman, because I can't let her in. I'm too broken and she deserves way better than me. But forgetting about her, seemed impossible. Why was this one girl on my mind non-stop? I try to forget those thoughts and just lay there, as those awful memories play through my mind, making it hard for me to stop crying. Eventually I hear someone knock on the door and open it. Damn it! Please don't let it be her. "Hope?" I hear and sighed softly.