Emma Johansson

The last straw

TW:  suicide, this chapter gets dark.


Emma

"Okay so I get that something is going on, you're acting really weird and being very mean. I can't take this anymore. Is it something I've done, because if.. " I started no longer wanting to endure her wrath. 

"SOMETHING YOU'VE DONE???!!" Scarlett screams cutting me off.
"Isn't it always something you've done, were you ever going to tell me you got arrested?!"
"Because I just got a phone call from Chris saying that the bail that was payed for you was to much so he needed to know who he had to contact to give it back!!"

I stand there in utter shock. Was I ever going to tell her? I honestly don't know the answer. So I just keep my mouth shut, seeing the fact that I don't think it's smart to lie to her right know.

"Do you have anything, anything at all to say for yourself?" Scarlett asked suddenly scary calm. 

"I'm sorry okay, I know that doesn't cut it this time, but I am." I murmur.

"Honestly Emma, I don't even want to look at you right now, you've ren away, gotten into fights, stolen stuff, gotten drunk and now you're even vandalizing property, not to even mention you actually got arrested and DIDN'T EVEN TELL ME. I am so disappointed in you right now. I really don't know what to do anymore. If I ground you, you'll just sneak out. If I get angry at you, it's like you don't care because you'll just do it again. I'm at a lost. I know you don't see me as your mother, I do believe me I do, and I understand, that's not the problem. But I'm done trying to be your mom if you don't want me in your life. I don't know how to lecture you without pushing you away even further. I love you like your my own daughter but right now I need you to leave." She says in a very disappointed voice, not even being able to look me in the eye.

'but, where will I go?' I think to myself staring at my shoes. We stand there in silence for a while until Scarlett sights. 

"You know what I'll just stay at Maria's for a while, until I can maybe look at you again." With that being said she walked out the front door leaving me alone to my thoughts.

'I finally did it, I finally pushed away the last person that actually cared about me, this was the last straw and now she won't even look at me anymore.' I don't know how long I stood there bound by my own thoughts but it was dark out, by the time I snapped out of it.

***

Two weeks had gone by and Scarlett was still not talking to me, she came back home after about a week and a half but she hasn't really acknowledged my existence. School was school, boring and hard. I had to work on that stupid Russian project with Florence and it was literal hell. Not really the times we were alone, because once we were alone she was actually quite nice. But it was like she had to make up for it whenever other people were around, because she wouldn't leave me alone. She kept disrespecting me and a bunch of her minions started to join her. I missed Scarlett, I just didn't know what to do to make it right again. She wouldn't look at me let alone talk to me. Tom and Chloe had noticed my absent but didn't really know what to do about it either so they thought it was just best to let me be. 

I had been a perfect student ever since my last encounter with Scarlett, I hadn't gotten into anymore fight, meanly because I wouldn't be around to get into the fights. I would eat my lunch in Mr. Stan's office alone and only spoke when called on in class. I hadn't sold any adarall and I had way to much of that shit stuff laying around. 

Another two weeks passed just like that. I was starting to get more and more depressed. I don't even know why I was behaving the way I did anymore. I felt so lost. The bell went signaling the end of the lessons and the beginning of the weekend. But I didn't want to go home, I knew Scarlett would be there and I knew she wouldn't talk to me. It was raining outside and my phone battery had only 5 % left. 

I sat there silently in the classroom, mindlessly looking out the window till a voice startled me. 

"Shouldn't you be on your way home?" Florence asks

Great I can add her to my list of problems right now ass well. But instead I finally get up and walk past her out off school without saying a word. I could hear her following me throughout the school but I didn't care, there was nothing that she could say that would make me feel worse than I already did. Within seconds I was completely drenched it was really raining hard. 

"Emma, what are you doing, get out the rain, you're going to get sick." Florence yells from between the the school doors.

I just shrug and start walking away, it was dark out but I didn't really know where to go. Home? Na without Scarlett it was just another roof over my head. A bridge would suffice for that as well. When I finally found a bridge I first thought about going underneath it to be dry, but I was already soaking wet So what was the point. Instead I climbed on top of the bridge and took a seat on the edge.

I checked my phone, 11pm. and 1% battery with a million problems. I started crying my eyes out. Looking down at the road beneath me, maybe I don't deserve to be loved, maybe I am just damaged goods. Someone nobody likes. 

Scarlett
I was at home when my phone started ringing with a number I didn't recognised. When I answered the phone I first couldn't really make out anything that was being said, but when I was about to hang up something got my attention. 

"Uhu madam, you need to get here as soon as possible, I don't think she's doing so good." I heard in a whisper. 

"Who is this and how did you get my number?" I asked, but a long silent followed.

"Mam you need to hurry, I'm trying to follow her but I don't know where she is going and she looks.... sad? I don't know what to do." I hear in another whisper.

"You are following who?, who is looking sad?" I ask

"Emma, Mam, It's Emma, something is off." 

"Don't hang up tell me where you are!" Shit what's going on, I swear if she got into trouble again. I jump into my car and trace Emma her phone just before I get a location it stops. Shit she must have turned of her phone. Lucky for me the girl on the phone answers me with a live location. After about 5 minutes it seems like she has stopped moving. I hear soft voices through the phone and turn the volume all the way up.

"Emma what are you doing?" The girl asks

"Florence?? What are you doing here, get away from me." I hear Emma sniff.

"Em, don't be ridiculous and get away from that edge,
 what if you fall?" The girl asked worried.

"Don't act as if you care,
 maybe this world is better off without me,
 all I seem to do is disappoint people" 

"What about your mom?
She is worried sick!"

"Yeah and how do you know that?
She hasn't spoken to me in over a month!"

"Just step away from the edge and come talk to her right now,
I have her here on the phone, she is on speaker."

"MOM?" Emma cries

"I'm here Em, I'm almost there just hold on" I scream through my phone

"I feel like I'm over the edge right now,
I wish that I could say I'm proud,
I'm sorry that I let you down.
I guess I'm a disappointment,
never wanted to make you disappointed. 
But I did, and now I don't know what to do anymore."

The second I see her I jump out of my car en run towards her. 

I know, I know, it has been a while but I'm back. let's see for how long but we are going to start off with a cliffhanger so that's a promise for a future.

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