the disastrous life of tommyinit - ftm au

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tw- sh,

wilbur - pov

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I sat on the floor, knees up to my eyes. I felt like shit. Phil was disappointed in me, I got suspended for a week. I felt a small number of tears run down my face, I put my head up wiping the tears and snot on my face onto my hoodie sleeve. I looked at the small box on my dresser. I sighed, getting up and going to it.

I walked over to my dresser looking at the box, I wiped the dust off of it and opened it. "Long time no see huh?" I said. The box had old razor blades and box cutters in it. I took the box to the bathroom.

I sat down on the floor looking at the white tiles. I opened the box taking out a box cutter, I put the blade to my skin cutting through the skin. 1, 2, 10, 20. That's all I did 10 on each arm. I threw the box cutter across the room. "Shit," I said. I watched as the blood spilt out of my arms. "Shit I think I went too deep-" I mumbled. I felt Weezy, I felt my head become light. I heard the door rattle. I looked up. Philza.

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Phil pov

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I stared down at Wilbur, with his bloody wrist, snot, and tears on his face. "D-dadza-" Wilbur said. "Will?" I said bending down. "I-im sorry," he said. "No shh" it's alright I said, running my fingers through his hair. Wilbur threw himself into me crying into my chest. "Hey, it's okay, I promise," I said. "Wilbur, I need to clean your cuts," I whispered. "Mm," Wilbur said sitting up.

I looked down at my shirt and it had bloodstains on it now. "Will? How long has it been since you last cut?" I asked. "T-two years'' There was an odd silence until I spoke.

"Listen, if I upset you when I said that, I'm sorry," I said as I grabbed stuff. I looked down at Wilbur. He was staring at what was a white tile. "Wilbur?" I said. "Huh?" he said. I sat down next to him, setting all the stuff I needed on the floor.

"Can I see your hands?" I asked. He handed me his wrist looking the other way towards the open door. "Shit will, these r really deep," I said. He made a slight whine. I grabbed some Saline solution putting it on his cuts then bandaged them up.

"There you go," I said. "T-thanks," he said. "Wilbur if you ever need anything or just wanna talk I'm here okay?" I said. "I-i know.. I just felt like shit," He mumbled. "Will, Is it about what I said?" I asked. There was once again a silence between us. "Will, I can tell it is, I'm sorry for that okay?" I said softly. Wilbur looked at me, wiping his eyes. "I'm sorry" he whispered. "Hey, don't be, it's okay, I promise" "y-you sure?" he whispered again.

"Yes I'm sure of it, but I do want to ask, why did you get into a fight?" I asked. "I-i some kids at school- they said I was a girl and would always be a girl, so I punched him and then all that happened '' He said. "Oh, Well I'm glad you attacked them," I said with a laugh. "Wait, for real?" "yes, They don't have the right to call you a girl, you're a boy and you will always be one even if your body is or not,"

I looked at Wilbur, he had tears streaming down his face along with a smile. "T-thank you for everything," He said. "Of course, you're my son, but now I think you should go rest," I said. "Good idea," he said walking to his room.

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Wilbur -pov

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I sat down on my bed. I looked down at my wrist. 'Stupid' I grabbed my phone scrolling down my contacts. "Techno <3"

Wilbur <3: Hey man, How are you doing?" 

Techno <3 : "Hey Will!, I'm in class now so I'm probably not gonna be able to text you right back but pretty good, You?"

Wilbur <3 : "Idk, I slowly feel like life is getting worse like when we were 15,"

Tencho <3:   "oh, do you need to vent? I'll listen?/nf"

Wilbur <3: "Oh, i mean i guess-- I hate school and everything about it, I feel like i only get misgendered and everything, But, I have top surgery, i have short fucking hair, I'm a boy, the only thing that i don't have is bottom surgery but i shouldn't be called not a boy for 1 little surgery that i don't want. Its fucking shit."

Tencho <3: "ah, I understand, If anyone calls you a girl they're just jealous of how awesome you look, You should be proud that you're transgender, don't listen to the annoying assholes who tell you your not. Also, what'd you mean when we were 15?"

Wilbur <3 "I relapsed again, after 2 years." 

Tencho <3 : "oh, I'm sorry, Did you clean them?" "

Wilbur : Yeah, can I ask when you're gonna come visit next?" 

Tencho <3: "I may be able to next week!" "

Wilbur <3 : yay! I miss you :(" 

Tencho <3: "I miss you bud too, now i have to go love ya!"

Wilbur sighed, shutting off his phone laying back on his bed falling asleep.

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Tommy - pov

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I sighed getting up for my bed. It was only 2pm. I went to my phone looking at the text Tubbo had sent.

'THE BENCH TRIO >:}'

Beez boy: Hey toms everything okay?

Woman lover [NOT CLICKBATE] : Yeah! Sorry, I forgot to text u lol, Wilbur got into a fight so i had to go home.

Enderman kid or whatever: oh I'm glad you're okay.

Beez kid: Tommy can I send you a private message?

Woman lover [NOT CLICKBATE] : Yeah sure man.

*bing!*

Tubbo began to type a long message. "So for a long time I've had feelings.." I read

'Oh god.' I felt my heart speed up as fast as it ever has. I spun my eyes threw the message.

'Please don't say you love me'

"Tommy, I love you.." 

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hii you imsomic wirtes here with angst also im not shiping tommy x tubboo at all in here its just for the plot :]  anywayy-- I love you all please sleep eat drink ect!

also happy 18th birthday to tommy :oo