the disastrous life of tommyinit - ftm au

16

tw implied ed, age reggison and mental hospital metoin

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Tubbo - pov

"Tommy! You need to eat at least one meal a day!" I said. "I know! I just- forget it." "No! I want to hear what you're going to say!" I yelled. Ranboo covered his ears not wanting to hear anything. "I don't care about eating! I care about you, boo, Wilbur, Techno and Phil! I don't care about myself!" Tommy screamed. Tears formed in his eyes. "I- Tommy i-" I said stumbling on words. He wiped his face. "As I said, forget. It." He pulled out headphones and his phone putting on music, looking out the window.

Ranboo uncovered his ears. Tears rolled down my face. "Hey, it's okay I promise," Ranboo said wiping my eyes. I layed my head on his shoulder. "He'll get over it soon I promise."

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The truck stopped as we arrived at my house. "Tommy?" My dad said. "Yeah." "Phil wants you to stay with me while he's at the hospital, just so u don't do anything." My dad said getting out of the truck. "K" We got out going to the living room.

"Tubbo you hungry?" My dad asked. "Mhm" "I'm gonna order some pizza can you go see if Tommy wants any?" "yeah," I said getting up. I walked to my room to find Tommy not there. I walked to the bathroom to see him in the corner crying.

I sat down next to him. "Rough day huh?" I said. "..Did you really just ask me that.." Tommy said. "Yeah, I'm sorry," I said laughing. "I wanna relapse," Tommy mumbled into his legs. "What?" I said confused. "I-i wanna harm myself," Tommy said fully open. "Toms, how long have

you been clean?" "t-twenty days.." He said with a sob. "Hey! Im proud of you! That's good that you got far!" I said. "R-really..?" He said sitting up. "yeah! " I said. Tommy threw himself onto me.

"Do you want some pizza? My dad's gonna order some?" I asked. "I guess.." Tommy said playing with my hair. "Alright, come on let's go to the living room" We got up going to the living room.

Tommy sat on the far end of the couch away from me and ranboo.

*ding!*

The pizza came, and we all sat at the table taking the food. I gave Tommy 2 Pisces thinking he would eat them. Me and ranboo got done eating, while Tommy hadn't even at his 1st piece. "Tubbs- i-i cant" Tommy whispered. "You can what?" I said confused. "I ca-can't eat this it's so much i-i," He said tears streaming down his face. "Shit," I wisped coming up to him.

I got a cloth to wipe his eyes. "Okay, can you at least eat the piece you're almost done with? I'll be happy with just that," I said. Tommy nodded eating the food.

"Boys and Tommy," My dad said trying to get us. "Tommys a boy," I said. "Oh," he said.

Ranboo - pov

"Well I have to go to work so you boys will be home alone, PLEASE don't FUCKING burn the house down," He said looking right at tubbo as he left the door. "So what do you guys wanna do!" I asked. "Wanna watch some tv?" Tubbo asked. I nodded. "Tommy?" Tubbo asked. Tommy was dosed off thinking about some.

"Toms?" He said going up. "Huhs? Sowwy what?" He said in a childish tone. Me and tubbo were confused, why was he talking like that? "are you okay?" Tubbo asked. "Uhs, yea? Everything okay just not hunggy" Tommy said rubbing his eyes. "Tommy?" I said. Tommy began to sob as I called him 'Tommy'.

"Shit uhm- Taylor?" tubbo said confused. He began to cry more. "Shit, hey bubs how old are you right now?" tubbo said patting his head. Tommy held up 4 fingers. "Alright, can you write down your name?" tubbo said giving him paper and pencil. Tommy begin to write a name giving tubbo the paper. The name 'clementine' was poorly written. "Clementine?" Tubbo asked. Tommy nodded yes happily.

"Wait im confused?" Ranboo said. "T- Clementine is in age reggison do you know what that is?" Tubbo told me. "Uh no-" I said laughing. "Age reggison is when you reggison into a little ages go from 10-0 its a coping mehcashim to deal with trauma, form when you didn't get a normal childhood," Tubbo explained. "Oh, alright so their 4?" I asked. "Yesp!" Clementine said.

"Do you have any like plushes or toys?" Tubbo asked. "Nos, I haves a paci thos" they said. They pulled it out of their bag putting it in their mouth, it had a moth on it. "You wanna watch some tv?" I asked. They nodded running to the couch. "Bo? What time is it?" Ranboo asked. "Uhh, 7" tubbo said sitting on the couch. "Alright," I said sitting on the couch with them.

"Clem?" Tubbo said. "Huhs?" "do you want me to go to your house and get you some jammies?" Tubbo asked. "Mes just wanna sleep in a hoodie," Clementine said rubbing their eyes. "I have some comfy pants you can wear" I offered. They nodded. I got the pants giving him them. "Do you have a binder on?" I asked. They nodded. "We need that off, can I take it off?" Tubbo asked.

"Uhs, I guess buts don't look at my chest ease" Clem whined. "Of course," tubbo said.

Tubbo took him to the bathroom and got him dressed. They came back and sat on the couch. "Cuddles" Clem asked. me and tubbo laughed. "Sure bubbs come here," Tubbo said. They got in between us. "I wove you bo and boo" clem whispered before going into the dream realm.

Wilbur pov [back to the hospital wooo]

"___ soot?" I heard. "My name is Wilbur," I said annoyed. "Yeah sorry, You have 2 visitors," The doctor said letting in techno and philza.

"Will?" Phil said. "Hm?" "so, uh- im- im gonna send you to a mental hospital." Phil said "WHAT!" I screamed. I began to panic. "I-i! I don't wanna go there again!" I said crying. "Will- I know but they'll get you the help you need!" Phil stated. More tears sped down my face, my heart went up, and I felt like I was gonna throw up. "Will," Techno said looking at me. "Wilbur." He said Tapping me.

I struggled to look at him. "You need to breathe, can you breath with me?" He said rubbing me back. I nodded. "Okay, follow me okay? Inhale 2..3..4, Exhale, 5, 6, 7,8 okay?" Techno said. I nodded and began to breathe. I repeated it at least 5 times. "Will, I think you should go, trust me they'll help you," Techno said. I wimped. "I-i don't like that place," I said.

"I understand but, would you rather stay in this hospital hooked up to an iv for a week?" Techno asked me. "N-no," I said. "That's what I thought, now im gonna go home okay? I love you" Tehco said playing with my hair. "A-alright, I love you too." Techno left so did Phil, I closed my eyes drifting asleep hoping everything would be over soon.

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next chapter will be full of angst :)