the disastrous life of tommyinit - ftm au

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I wanna try some no povs so a lot of this will be no povs! Also, get ready for some angst :)

Tw body dystopia attempted suicide :)

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Techno pov

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I opened the car door, going inside. "Im so stupid," Phil said starting the car. "Heh? How?" I asked. "Wilbur did that cause of me," Phil said as the drove away from the hospital. "Im sure it wasn't all cause of you, he did get into that fight," I said. "M, guess your right, do you wanna go to the house or back to your dorm?" Phil asked me. "Eh'll go back to the house I haven't been there in a while," I said. "Alr mate"

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No pov

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*BANG* There was a bang at the door. "What the?" Tubbo said waking up. He unwrapped Tommy from his arms and opened the door, it was Phil and techno. "Phil?" Tubbo said rubbing his eyes. "Hey? Is Taylor here still?" He asked. "Oh yeah do you need me to wake her?"tubbo asked looking down. "Yeah," Phil said.

Tubbo went over to him and began to shake him. "What the hell!" Tommy said sitting up. "Why do you have a pacifier-" Phil asked. Tommy began to sweat. "Oh uhm, I chew on a lot of stuff and it just helps me not," Tommy said lying. "Alr you ready to go home?" Phil asked. Tommy nodded getting his stuff, "Bye Tubbo, bye boo!" Tommy said leaving.

Tubbo sighed sitting back on the couch, "uh, bo?" ranboo said. "Hm?" "Can i go home?" Boo asked. "Yeah of course man," Tubbo said. "Alright bye!" ranboo said leaving.

Tubbo walked to the bathroom and stared at himself in the mirror. He hated the way his jaw was, the way his eyes were, his nose, his face shape, how cubby he was. He looked down at his body. He hated how his body curled, how much he weighed, the way his arms looked, the way his legs looked. He hated himself.

He began to shed tears, He just wanted to be happy, An idea popped into his head, He ran to the cabinet that had all the medicine in it, he brought out 5 bottles, he couldn't read what they were, he just wanted to take them, He got them and filled a cup up with the sink water. He took the pills.

His body heated up, He felt sick, he felt hot, he felt like he was dying. He was still crying, he was panicking, he felt like he was gonna pass out, "is this the end?" he thought, he passed out on the bathroom floor, smiling thinking he was finally dead.

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Tommy walked to his house with techno and Phil. "Soo, what's happening with Wilbur?" He asked. "Oh, im gonna send him to a mental hospital," Phil said, "wut? Why?" Tommy asked confused. "They will help him more than anyone," Phil said opening the door. "Taylor, you should get some sleep you do have school in the morning," Techno said. "Alright," Tommy said going to his room. "OH WAIT! I forgot something at tubbos house can i go get it?" Tommy asked.

"Yeah," Phil said giving him a key. "K!" Tommy said running to his house. He opened the door to find tubbo not there. "Tubbs?" Tommy said. He walked to the bathroom to grab his binder and stared at the floor.

Tubbo was passed out, he had pills everywhere, and there were tears and sweat all over the floor.

"T-Tubbs?"

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Im sorry for the short chapter I wanted to put yall on a cliff hanger :)

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also, if you have thoughts of self-harm or suicide, please call 800-273-8255 or chat on their website, suicide is a very serious topic that takes away life very fast, it puts a big impact on others' lives, I've lost 2 people to it and it's so hard, suiside won't only hurt you, it'll hurt the people around you.  so please call 800-273-8255 or chat using the website, I was gonna make tubbo die but I'm not as mean as that <3