𝓽𝓮𝓮𝓷𝓪𝓰𝓮 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 - ᴀsʜᴛʀᴀʏ

[13]

It's been three weeks since the last time I have gone to Fezco to take drugs. I got a deal with Rue that it's better for her to go because he's going to get suspicious. Fez is the smartest person I have ever met and because of that, I think he already got suspicious. He is also the sweetest human being so I would never do anything to make him upset. And the worst part is that Ash would find out and that was the last thing I want to happen. Because I don't want the person I love to watch me destroy myself.

It was Sunday so obviously, I wasn't planning on staying home on New Year's Eve. I was already planning to go to a party with Maddy, Cassie, Lexi, and Kat. I don't know where Rue was. Probably with Jules. And I didn't care to be honest. We haven't been so close since what happened that night. Only if we needed each other for drugs. She didn't even care to admit her guilt or apologize.

"Am I hearing this correctly? You want to tell McKay that you made out with Daniel at the carnival and on Halloween." Maddy said.

"Yeah. But I don't want to say it's Daniel." Cassie explained.

"Bitch, that's the craziest idea I've ever heard," I confessed.

"Right, for sure." Maddy agreed.

"I want to be honest with him," Cassie told us.

"Eh," Lexi mumbled and shook her head in disagreement.

"You cannot tell Mckay," Maddy spoke, raising her eyebrows.

"That's not like I cheated."

"Kissing is so much worse. It's so much intimate. If anybody brings it up to you deny, deny, deny." Maddy said.

"Okay, but I just don't want there to be anything that's bothering us forever," Cassie explained.

"Then you shouldn't have cheated on him in the first place," I said, and not long after I noticed the looks on the girl's faces towards me. They looked at me like I said something wrong but I just didn't realize what the fuck was Cassie expecting.

"Yes. Also, I wouldn't worry about it, Cassie. It's not like you guys are gonna be together forever." Kat said and she wasn't wrong.

"Kat, what the fuck is your problem. You're being a bad friend. You are a bad friend to me and this whole new personality is seriously unlikeable."

Kat had a harsh childhood just like the rest of us did. Maddy had no right to do her like this. Because if anyone was a good friend in our friend group it was Kat. She was there for anyone whenever they needed her. She has the right to have some time for herself.

"Why? Because I don't want to sit here and listen to you bitch and moan about your psychotic abusive boyfriend who you've broken up with a thousand times." Damn.

"It was the lowest point of my life so yeah, that and the fact that you just fucking mean," Maddy said.

"Maddy, ever since I've met you all you talk about is yourself, your clothes, your boyfriends, and whatever superficial shit you think is so fucking important. Sorry, I am no longer interested." Oh fuck. This isn't going to end well.

"I don't know about everyone else but I miss the old Kat. You know the one that had a sense of humor and wasn't a fucking cunt."

Kat just looked at each of us, picked up her jacket from the chair, and left.

"Maddy? Was this necessary?" I turned my head to face Maddy.

"What the fuck, Chloe? She was being a bitch." She raised her eyebrows while looking at me.

"Oh well, every one of us has been a bitch for once, or more than once," I looked at Maddy. "But now when Kat is being a bitch it's so fucking wrong because you are used to her being a friend that is always fucking there for you."