Accumulated Trauma

Chapter 5: Your Story

⚠️trigger warning: mentions of S/A, Abuse, kidnapping, drugs, trauma response⚠️

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*back with you*

Emily sees that you are calm enough to try again. 

Emily - “y/n? Do you want some water?”

You nod slightly, and she hands you the bottle, already open, and she drinks from her bottle at the same time. You take a sip, and realise how thirsty you were, so you start gulping it back really fast

JJ - “woah y/n, slow down, you are going to make yourself sick.”

You stop gulping and take a deep breath and wipe your mouth. 

Emily laughs - “thirsty much?”

You just nod and they both laugh. You then yawn. 

JJ - “are you tired y/n?”

You nod again.

JJ - “come here.”

You scooch closer to her and she puts her arms around you. You instantly feel safe and don't even flinch at all when Emily moves your hair away from your face. JJ looks happily at emily. Emily smiles as Hotch walks in. by this point, you are already asleep, so you didn't know Hotch was in the room with you. He fills the girls in while you sleep, trying not to wake you, and gives them advice on how to get you to talk. 

You stir in your sleep and wake up. You look at Hotch and you cannot breathe. 

H - “hello y/n my name is Aaron, i work with these two” gestures to Emily and JJ.

You don't respond but stare at him with wide eyes. He goes to move but you back into the corner and bring your legs up to your chest. Hotch watches your behaviour and realises.

H - “okay y/n, i'm going to leave okay? It's okay, you're safe, no one will touch you.”

Emily and JJ both listen to his words and realise too. JJ goes to your side and Emily sits in front of you as she mouths ‘thank you’ to hotch as he leaves. You calm down slightly, but don't move your legs. JJ puts her hand on your knee, and your eyes shoot to her.

JJ - “hey, hey it's okay, i promise you are okay, you are safe okay?”

Emily - “You can trust us okay, y/n?”

You look at Emily, you hesitate but nod. JJ smiles and rubs your arm soothingly.

After about 10 minutes, you are calmed down, and you lower your legs and cross them, putting the cushion back in your lap. You look at both Emily and JJ, realise emily is the only one with a watch on. 

y/n - “what time is it?”

Emily - "half past two why?”

Your face goes white and you start to cry.

JJ - “y/n? what is it?”

You just shake your head and bury your face into the cushion.

Emily - “Is it about jack?”

Your head shoots up to face her.

y/n “you found him?”

JJ - “not yet, but we are looking.”

y/n - “it doesn't matter, it's too late, even if you found him, you wouldn't get there in time.”

Emily - “what do you mean y/n?”

You shake your head and look down.

y/n - “i am not back, so they are going to kill him if i am not back in time,”