Can You Fill Me In? ((Austin Mahone and Pia Mia Love Story))

I'm scared

"I know what you need." Kylie told me.

"What?" We were sitting in my room watching Family Guy.

It was probably 3 in the morning. Kylie stayed the night just to make sure I was okay. Hash tag true friend.

"You need a rebound crush."

I threw my pillow at Kylie.

"Not ready for that."

"Well if you wait until you're ready Pia you're not getting over it and besides thats the whole point. Someone new to help you get over Austin."

I just rolled my eyes and turned my attention back to the tv.

All day today me and Kylie did absolutely nothing but stay in my room and watch funny movies. I saw Blended for the first time and its probably my favorite movie now.

It's now 11:13 PM and my mom came up to my room to tell Kylie to go home.

"You have school in the morning. And clean this room" is exactly what she said and did I clean it? Absolutely not.

We had empty chip bags, soda cans, a pizza box, bowls, trash, blankets and pillows everywhere in my room.

We lived in this room for 2 days and only left to use the bathroom.

I'll admit it made me feel so much better. I needed this.

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Dear Monday,

Nobody likes you.

Sincerely,

Everyone

I didn't really dress up today instead I wore sweats and a cropped shirt. Hopefully I don't get in trouble for it. Most of my teachers are cool with dress codes.

I didn't wear much makeup either, just eyeliner, mascara and my EOS chap stick.

My day started out good. I was in such a good mood until I got to school. I saw Austin's Camaro and I decided to park all the way on the other side of the parking lot. Hopefully he'll think I'm not here today and maybe he won't try to look for me.

I went through my day like I usually would minus the walking to class with Austin part.

So far I was doing good with not avoiding him but as soon as I walk into 6th period I know I'm going to have to face him.

I got to class really early today and claimed a seat towards the front of the room. I got weird looks from some of Austin's friends but I wasn't worried about them.

The one person who I actually payed attention to was Austin.

He didn't see me sitting here at first but when he noticed I wasn't in my usual spot his eyes searched the room for me. I put my hood over my head and put my down.

Maybe he won't notice.

I felt a tap on my shoulder

Okay maybe not.

I slowly lifted my head up and found Austin in the seat next to me.

"You're avoiding me."

"Don't be silly." I sat up straight in my seat.

"I'm not. I was trying to text you and call but it went straight to voicemail. What was that text all about?"

"I don't know what you're talking about."

Austin got quiet for a moment before speaking again.

"Pia, just talk to me. Please."

I contemplated telling him the full truth but I knew somehow he'd talk me out of it.

"Look Austin, I might as well tell you this before it gets too deep," I paused and looked into Austin's hazel eyes. Big mistake. I melted right then and there.

I couldn't do it. I don't want to hurt him.

"Pia..." Austin grabbed my hand, urging me to continue.

"Austin I'm scared." I don't know where that came from.

I guess my heart was faster than my brain.

Maybe that's what I'm feeling. I'm scared...

"Scared of what, Pia?"

Instead of answering I just looked down at my feet and avoided making eye contact with Austin because I know if I do I will start crying and I don't want to cry in front of him.

I was scared to love him.