i know for as long as i live this will be the moment i will always think of when im happy.
we spend the rest of the day and the whole night cuddled up in each other in my bed watching movies. im sad for sunghoon to leave of course, but im so very proud of him. i can't wait to be able to say to everyone that park sunghoon the best ice skater is my boyfriend!!
"hey, can i stay tonight? i really don't want to go home darling! i don't want to be near my parents right now..." sunghoon asks shyly. "of course hoonie! my parents will be home soon but they won't mind. they love you!" i say smiling.
sunghoon buries his head into my neck and pulls me tighter to him.
"you're mine. forever." "and you're mine forever." i reply.
we fall asleep wrapped up in eachothers arms, enjoying the moments while we have it. though neither of us say a word, we both feel one anothers tears mix together to create a pool of pain and love. the sky outside darkens as the night wears on and though i try, sleep does not come. how is it that when a good thing is given to you by the universe it only lasts for so long. what is the point in being gifted the thing you long for most when you must give it up sooner than expected.
the stars burn brightly in the now cloudless night sky. i try to focus on them and remind myself that no matter where either myself of sunghoon goes, we will always be beneath the same stars. we will always look up into the same night sky, even if its at different times in the night, it will always contain the same sparkling lights.
"what are you thinking darling?" sunghoon's voice breaks the deafening silence. "the stars..." i reply turning to face him. his eyes are red and puffy from his quiet tears. "why?" his trembling hand finds my tear dampened cheek in the pale moonlight. "they will always keep us together." my smile feels forced. i suppose it is. why would i smile for real in a moment like this? "yes. we will always be under them wont we?" his own smile seems just as painful as my own. "yknow, i never thought i would ever have to say goodbye to you. even if we were together until death i had the dream of dying at your side. i guess fairytales dont exist right?" his thumb roams over my bottom lip which threatens to shake from the pressure of holding in my tears. "this is the real fairytale hoon. why would we want a boring typical love at first sight, hapily ever after, fairytale? that sucks if you ask me." i let out a hoarse chuckle. "the both of us are far from perfect so our relationship must certainly not be perfect yes?" "i suppose that is very true my love."
sunghoon raises himself to his elbows and rolls on top of me, his full weight on me.
"im not squishing you am i?" his sudden panic makes me giggle. "no park sunghoon. you weigh almost nothing."
he bends to connet our lips and i push myself up further trying to get us closer. it feels as though there is metres of space between us even though we are pressed right up againt eachother. sunghoons hands find my hips and he holds on as though im his anchor in the middle of a stormy sea. my own hands graze over his shoulders and down his back resulting in goosebumps rising on his hot skin. his kisses make their way down my chin, down my jaw, down my neck to where my shirt neckline starts just beneath my collar bones.
"you smell nice." sunghoon whispers against my neck making me shiver. "i smell like you, idiot." i laugh gently.
my fingers run through his silky silver hair pulling softly making him moan deep in his throat.
"what are you doing to me Han y/n?" his voice sounds as if he is growling.
sunghoon starts kissing my neck now more impatient certainly leaving red and purple marks. a small moan escapes my lips and he raises his face to smirk at me.
"oh, so you enjoy that do you?" he suddenly sounds like a man. deep voice. its my turn to have goosebumps all over. "do you want this?" "i- yes. but no. i dont kno-" my eyes start roaming his face quickly naturally looking for some kind of disapointment. "baby, its okay if you want to wait. i will wait for you. no matter how long it takes." he kisses my forehead, nose and finally my lips so gently i almost thought i was imagining it. "really?" tears spring in my eyes. "of course darling." his smile so full of love it melts my heart completely. "i want to wait. but- i uhm-" i take a deep shaky breath and force myself to say what is on my mind. "park sunghoon, i want you to be my first." i feel my cheeks flare up in embarresment. "of course. only if you will be mine." "what?" i have never opened my eyes so wide in my life. "you- you havent-" "uhm no..." this time sunghoons cheeks burn red. "well then, i would be honored." i put my hands on either side of my boyfriends face and pull him to my chest. "i love you eith my whole heart park sunghoon." "and i love you with my whole life han y/n."
we sleep under the light of our stars. love like a bubble surrounding us.
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