frozen souls | Park Sunghoon x reader | enhypen ff |

x 25

i look in the mirror and see my cheeks are slightly pink. why is yang jungwon making me so flustered? he is just like a brother to me.

right?

y/n pov
im in the bathroom contemplating the recent event longer than i realize as jungwon knocks on the door.

"youre not dead in there are you? ive watched a lot of videos trying to learn how to pick loks but theyve come of no avail, so im afraid that i will certainly be of no help if youre dying..." he says through the keyhole.
"im alive dont worry." i say laughing. "for now anyways..." i say automatically.
"for what? its kind of difficult to hear through the door..." jungwon asks.
"oh uhm. nothing nevermind!" i chuckle nervously. "im comin now."

i unlock the door and see jungwon sitting cross legged on the floor smiling up at me.

"hi." he says cutely.
"hello. whatcha doin?"
"waiting for you obviously!" he says.
"mmm whatever. cmon lets go get the others. i want food and jay is the most trustworthy for that!" i say smiling.
"oh. are we not going out for breakfast. just us? me and you...alone?" he asks quietly.
"oh right. ehm. how about tomorrow? i kinda wanna spend the last few hours with sunghoonie before he has to go..."
"aish! yes sorry i forgot! okay deal!" he says smiling and getting up. "LECHUGOOO~"

we make or way downstairs and start waking up jay, niki and sunoo seen as the others are awake already.

"uhm...where is hoon?" i ask confused, not being able to see my boyfriend anywhere.
"shower" niki says gruffly.
"whats up with my baby brother hah?" i ask pouting pulling niki into my arms.
"sunghoon hyung has to go. our thingy didnt work last night!" he replies into my shoulder.
"awe my poor child. its okay sweetie dont worry. hey think about this, the sooner he goes the sooner he comes back yeah?"
"mmm okie i guess!" niki gets up and walks off to sunoo.

15 minutes later sunghoon walks in with damp hair and a sleevless white shirt on.

"WOWOWOWOW look at this hottie-"
"YAH! SHIM JAYEUN YOU BETTER WATCH YOUR MOUTH!!!" i scream as i run over to sunghoon. "yah!!!! what are you wearing hah?!?!?!"
"oh...i thought you would like it?" he replies sadly.
"oh hoonie you silly boy! i like it a bit too much!" i whisper smirking, placing a hand on his VERY TONED bicep. "holy shi-"
"watch it little girl..." sunghoon says sternly grabbing my chin between his thumb and forefinger.
"okay okay! park sunghoon your making me melt. stop i beg!" i say giving him my best doe eyes.
"well when you look at me like that we might have a problem sweetheart..." he smirks"
"OKAY LOVEBIRDS!!!! CHILLLLLLLL!!!!!! BREAKFAST IS READYYYYYYYY~" jay shouts impatiently.

we all laugh and sit at the kitchen table and eat DELICIOUS breakfast.

x time skip - sponsered by heeseung because he deserves all the love possible (he is extremely beautiful and kind- owns my entire living soul) x

i look at the time on my phone screen and feel a pang of pain in my chest. we are driving to the airport. 2 hours until his flight. 2 hours to hold him until i wont see him again for 6 months. 2 hours of wrapping myself up in his scent, warmth and love.

"you okay darling?" sunghoon places his warm hand on my leg and puts his forehead against mine.

i cant even find my voice to answer him so i just shake my head no.

"i know love, i know. but its gonna be okay. we will get through this alright?" sunghoon kisses my forhead, then my nose, and finally a lengthy, tender kiss on my lips.

i hold in my tears.

x at the airport - i apologise, i am in the midst of sleep deprivation along with sitting in a heatwave and obviously writers block T^T - x

we all stand huddled together as sunghoons parents take the luggage to the check in counter.

i felt cold. not in temperature. but inside. my chest was tight. my tummy in knots. my hands and lips trembling. this is what its like to have to say goodbye to your love. whether its for 6 months, 6 years or forever, the pain will always be unbearable.

"i guess you better go hyung..." Jungwon says quietly.
"yeah, spose so..." sunghoon replies painfully. "cmere all you pabos!" he pulls us all into a big group hug before hugging us all individually.

he leaves me for last. i dont know if thats more painful or releiving.

"hi ice boy" i say sadly as he holds my hands in his.
"hi little girl." his voice cracks, breaking my heart even more. "come here love." he pulls me against him and holds me tightly.
"please. please dont go!" i beg, struggling to speak through crying.
"i dont have a choice y/n you know that. ill come to visit and you can come to me also yeah?" i can hear him crying into my shoulder.
"okay." i croak.

i bury my face deeper into his chest and try to memorize his scent. i want to keep it on me forever.
his hands make their way into my hair and he gently rund his fingers through.

"im gonna miss your hair..." he says chuckling.
i pull away. "oh just my hair hah? i see how it is!" i crease my eyebrows.
"oh god no. i will miss you more than my heart will ever be able to muster. i just dont want to think like that. i keep telling myself im just going on a vacation."
"it is just a vacation. you will be back very veryy soon." i whisper, tears finally breaking, spilling down my cheeks.
"oh baby baby nooo~" sunghoon wipes at my tears with his thumbs as his own tears fall.
"i love you park sunghoon. i love you i love you i love you!!!!" i say and fall to my knees.

sunghoon falls with me. i dont care that we look pathetic. two of us on our knees in the middle of the airport crying into eachothers arms.

"i love you han y/n. more than will ever be capable to say in words." he grabs my face and kisses me like its our last day on earth.

after 15 minutes of tears and kisses and the rest of the boys pulling us apart, jake is gripping onto me holding me from dropping to the floor again or even run after sunghoon as he walks to the boarding gate with his parents.

he doesnt turn and im glad. i dont think i would be able to hold myself together if he did.

"its just a short vacation..." i whisper to myself as jake half carries me to our cars.