A door away

Chapter 11: That one night

Ally's POV

This all made sense now. You may have forgotten this fact about me, but I always know the latest gossip. Always. That means I have sources. Well Tony was one of them. Actually the only one. We were a team. We wanted to get revenge on every popular person in our highschool that wronged us. I am quiet, humble and shy. But this. This was a new side of me that I never knew I had. And a side that I now wish to be buried forever.

Me and Tony didn't have any gossip site or app. I mean this was not "Gossip girl". But we had our ways of spreading the information.

Sometimes we would tell, for example,  Bethy Robinson. She was the most noicy person in the whole school. We knew she would tell everyone.

Other times we would secretly stick notes with the information on them in the toilets, where we knew that there were no cameras. Plus highschoolers spend 80% of their time in there. It doesn't matter for what. Smoking, sex, mental breakdowns.

We even thought of a name to write at the corner of every note: "Xo and xo". Remember when I said earlier that this was not "Gossip girl"? Well yeah, but we still got inspired by it. If you have watched it, you know that at the end of each episode a voice says "You know you love me, xoxo Gossip girl". Well these was the idea behind it. I know it's kinda stupid, but me and Tony started doing this around 9th grade. Also if you ask someone today about it, they will certainly remember it. Everyone was scared of it. Everyone was careful and cautious. One wrong thing and they could be the next target.

Me and Tony did this up until 11th grade, when something happend one night. That is when all ended. But I'm not gonna share what happend yet. But remember that, cause that will be important later in the story.

Since then me and him never spoke again. Almost never again. When he became friends with Mina we came to an agreement to never talk about this again and to try our best to avoid eachother.

Of course Mina and Lorrie still have no idea about this. And I don't think I will ever be able to tell them. I'm scared that they will never be able to look at me again the same way. Plus the truth is...I myself am scared of this side of mine. I'm scared of setting it free again. Because last time I almost lost control. And you're probably wondering: Didn't you feel atleast a little remorse for the people? Did you not feel guilty for ruining their lives?

See that's the thing. I am feeling guilty. But at that time I felt angry. Really angry. At first we started rumours, which by the way were true, only about mean people who wronged us in the past. But then it got out of control and me and Tony started overdoing it.

Also the only thing I can tell you about that one night is that I came to my senses. Tony did not.

And I know you're wondering: Why are you telling us all this? Well because Tony is a bad person. He wasn't always like that. He was once sweet and kind. But his anger towards his bullies grew bigger and bigger until he eventually became angry at the whole world. And with that being said. I'm sure Tony sent his dad after me.

I don't have proof to defend my theory but I'm sure of it. I know him too well. He was my partner in crime for way too long. I know the way he thinks and the way he views the world. He is capable of this. Sadly his hard life turned him into this unrecognisable bad person who is constantly wearing a mask that no one, not even Mina, can see through. But I do. I just don't know how to tell Mina. Although I believe i am way closer to her than Tony will ever be, I'm not a 100% sure she will believe me. I mean what if she doesn't? And what if she tells Tony? And what if he sends another person after me?

I have to think about all of this before breaking it down to Mina. But I will have to tell her eventually. It is for her own good.

*Time skip*