I use the words that mean the most on someone who they mean or meant nothing to. Then again you were the meaning of a word that no longer exists to me. Id give anything to be the mistake you cant live without. I feel myself fading away from you. I feel my heart fading. I should have known better though. I guess this is my fault. Im the one that cant let go. I don't know what I'm holding on to anymore. All I know is I'm getting weaker and I want to give up. When you said the words you did, did you know they would stay ever after your gone? Last night we spoke again. You said you were so happy but now your back to your old ways. That broke my heart even more. I asked you to promise me something and you said you promised. Please don't break it. I also asked if you'd talk to me today and you said yes but I guess that was asking for to much. I just hope your okay. I can go without talking to you but I would hate myself if something ever happened to you. Just let that promise mean something, let me mean something to you and keep it. I know it will be hard but please. You have people that care about you and a girlfriend that loves you. As much as that hurts its true. Even though when I look at her my only thought is you, I know shes making you happy and that is all that matters. You are worth so much more then what you are doing to yourself. I wish I could help but ill keep my distance. I know you want that and maybe its for the best. Ill just love you for a distance. After all im terrified to get close to you again. I do love you though, and thats something I really need you to know. No matter what.
