I thought I was getting better but I was just getting worse, so much worse. The only sound haunting me tonight is my own heartbeat. Its the only way I know im alive, the only sense of feeling. It shakes my lifelessness until I remember to breathe to calm it. I lay here, wide awake unable to shake this weight on my chest. The darkness surrounding me, I surrender. Its a lost cause to fight it. Everyone has darkness. I spent so long running from it but its a part of me. The only thing that isnt going away so mine as well be at peace with it. If you cant defeat your demons make friends with them. After all they are who know you the best. They might be scary at first but maybe there just misunderstood. Ill let them under my skin and into my veins, Im too tired to fight anymore.
