Lately ive been living in a haze but one this has become clearer then anything, yet still alittle blurry. His eyes slowly are becoming my favorite shade of blue. I wont let my wall back down but hes almost close enough to touch. His face becoming more recognizable, a sharp jawline and lovely cheek bones. He's becoming familiar. A face that has always been around but I was unable to see maybe now I have a new light. When he smiles I dont get butterflies but I feel..at home. Like I want to spend a while just being next to him. Listening to him talk about his hopes and dreams or what kind of music he likes. I want to be close to him..that sounds dangerous in my head but he makes me forget the feeling in the pit of my stomach that you left. He keeps me awake at night but not in a bad way.. I dont talk to him much directly but in the mist of a conversation he catches my eyes but I look away unsure of what to say. Unsure of how to feel. Unsure.
