Tonight's the last night I will allow myself to be sad over you. Im tired of losing sleep over someone that wont even look in my direction.direction. Im stronger then this weight on my chest. Its going to be okay and I know that now.You were he anchor that held my head under water and allowed the water to fill my lungs.I thought you were an angel but then again I never trusted angels. no one is innocent, no one is pure. Angels arent real.I wondered why you weren't here. Now I know its because you fund another girl to hold on her dark nights. You will be missed,im going to miss you. But I know that its all better now. I know that one day ill hind someone who will love me and only me no matter what. Ill mean something to someone one day and ill be happy.Ill remember when I needed you and you weren't there. Ill remember when I was alone and crying out. Then ill be pulled close by the sleepy arms of the love of my life and then the thought of you will fade and be filled with all the memories of him. You can no longer stop me from a good life, you cant ruin me anymore. Ive wasted so long wondering why you'd just leave me, you made me hate myself. No more, Im the only person I need to love. You words dont mean a thing to me anymore all you ever said were lies. I was just stupid enough to believe them. Ill never trust someone as easily because of you but that wont stop me. I know there are other people that care about me and actually want me to achieve my goals. I want to be with someone who will be by my side the whole time not dragging me down. One day ill have my dream. Ill have my apartment in the city of my choice, ill have my husky at my feet. Eventually Ill have my beautiful daughter or son to make my life 1000x better then anyone in the world. Ill have my husband right beside me. Ill have the life ive always wanted and I wont stop working for it until I have it. I wont and dont need you. You had me brainwashed but ive broken free and can be who I want to. I wont be listening to these sad songs hoping you'll come back to me. im done with this feeling its time to let go.
