Rivalry

miracle

i don't know what has gotten into Alina and royal but they were acting weirder than ever but i couldn't really focus on them right now i was getting a divorce Dave and i haven't had any type of communications since i last seen him but today we meet with our lawyers and go over the terms and agreements to this divorce. i was nervous we hadn't laid eyes on each other i haven't heard his voice in almost a month i wonder what it's going to be like now i wonder??

p: don't worry about today you got this baby girl

i smiled at the message that had popped up on my phone taking a deep breath before heading to my lawyer office. it took me about 30 mins to arrive at the office and the closer i got to the room the faster my heart was beating i wiped my sweaty hands on my jacket and walked in seeing that i was the last one in all eyes were on me. i had finally made eye contact with Dave and it was like the kinetic pull he had on my heart didn't leave like i hoped it would. i took a seat across from Dave and his lawyer trying not to make eye contact.

I'm Greg and I'll be representing Mr. East here," Dave lawyer introduced himself we all shook hands after a formal introduction  

"Shall we begin," my lawyer stated 

we all nodded before both of our lawyers pulled out the paperwork with our separation agreement on it. my palms were so sweaty. 

"Uhm as i can see here your client has not sign his name and we would like to know what is the hold up," my lawyer Jon asked?

"Love," Dave stated making my heart sink into the seat i couldn't look up because then i will cry and he will know he has the upper hand in this.

"Well, I'm pretty sure love isn't what got you two here, so we are going to need that signature sir," Jon stated.

"ill sign it if miracle look at me and tell me we cant work this shit back out we been through way worse shit," Dave pleaded which started to make my skin crawl hearing him plead for a relationship he continuously disrespected. it was like the shackles to my heart had broken right there in that fucking seat he was trying to pull me back in like his bitch ass always did. 

"Sign the damn papers Dave," i looked him dead in the eyes with the coldest stare down i could give a bitch. 

"so, this is what you really want huh?? to break up our family Zuri deserves both of us in her life," he snapped 

"If your ass does right then she will have both of her parents until then idk what to tell you go to therapy seek help something, but i am not the solution to your problems and being married to me surely isn't,"  i snapped 

"How about you settle down over their little lady," Greg objected " this man is trying to fight for his family at least give him a chance to make it right," 

i rolled my eyes completely ignoring his stupid ass statement as i kept sitting there listening to these men talk about a second chance i began to realize my fucking worth. like i really gave 18 years of my life to this man the drama, the cheating, the abuse, and the neglect i didn't deserve this. i never deserved it, granted he was a married man when i messed around with him, but he chased me down and honestly what woman doesn't want to be desired even in the most toxic ways. i been knew better it just time for me to finally do better yes, Dave has a hold on my heart but i had to do it for me not for a better life for royal he has that already, not for Zuri she is too young to know what is going on right now anyways, but for me i had to let Dave go for me for the sake of my peace.

"dave just sign the papers i know you are scared of change you have always been and you like the thought of commitment but honestly you have some deep-rooted commitment issues. you have anger issues all you know how to do for your family is provide and its nothing wrong with that but a family can't just survive off money alone. we needed you your kids needed you i needed you dave but everything else was more important just as long as you paid the bills we should shut up and take your neglect, your abuse, cheating, and lying your family didnt deserve that shit and you know it.. so dave i ask again set me free set your self free from the shackles of this marriage ." i snapped making them grow silent 

"you feel like i put shackles on you miracle," 

"Dave sign the papers," Jon snapped 

"i will but if you two gentlemen excuse me i haven't heard my wife voice in almost over a month i haven't gotten to apologize to her about the shit i did and the pain i caused that even though she wants nothing to do with me my love for her will never change. i fucked up i was so use to the toxic shit with Layla and naw it's not an excuse and no i cant change over night but at least give me a year... if i sign the separation papers you have to promise to give me a year to get myself together for you and the kids." 

"And then what Dave?? I'm not giving you a year you fucked up bad this time no more coming back you have to face the mess you created just sign the papers, Dave." i stated 

"Miracle i can't let you go I'm sorry," he held his head down i watched tears fall down his face uncontrollably 

"Dave please I'm not happy with you anymore," i stated trying to convince him in any way to let me out this damn marriage i was running low on options here. i was ready to go this meeting has gotten too personal to quickly and my palms were still sweating 

"i can make you happy again," he cried he had fallen to his knees begging on the floor i looked over at Jon to see if he had a response and he just shook his head. 

"Dave there is someone else in my life," i told him and the whole room grew silent Dave looked up at me with the eyes i feared the most i knew what comes with that look my body fleshed white Dave slowly rose to his feet now hovering over me he wiped his face before he began to chuckle. and with a swift motion he had me by my throat pinned up against the wall everyone had jumped up at i swung trying to fight for air.

"can't nobody has you miracle," he whispered in my ear i felt myself slowly slipping out of consciousness  this was it this was the moment Dave killed me he always said he would.