Back In Time

Nightmare

Life at 12 Grimmauld Place was fine. It was just me and Sirius and Remus. Just chilling. Doing nothing really. At least for the first week. After that. Came the Order. The Order of the Phoenix. The people trying to stop Voldemort and his followers. Dumbledore's people. They were alright. It was mostly people I knew. Sirius and Remus. Of course. There was also Mad-eye Moody. The real Mad-eye Moody. McGonagall. Flitwick. Sprout. Snape. Bill Weasley. Aberforth Dumbledore. Mr. and Mrs. Weasley were also in the Order, but they weren't here right now. They were coming next month. With their kids. I also met the one's I didn't know. Mundungus Fletcher. Nymphadora Tonks. Kingsley Shacklebolt. They were all nice. I didn't really like Dung though. He was kinda creepy.

They had their meetings in the kitchen. I wasn't allowed in. Those meeting went on for hours. Usually at night though. So I just slept. But some were earlier. So. I just stayed in my room. Reading. Or thinking. Or. I would spend time with Buckbeak. Yeah. He's here. It was nice seeing him after a year. It was nice spending time with him. Just petting him. Or feeding him. Or just sitting next to him. Sometimes I would talk to him.

That's where I was now. There was a meeting going on now. It's been going on for three hours now. It was only 7:30 right now. And I was here. Sitting next to Buckbeak. And starring. Starring at nothing really. Trying not to think. Just. Blank thoughts. Not thinking of anything. Just. Nothing.

Thinking about nothing helps a lot. When I think. It's usually about. That night. Always that night. And I don't want to think about that night. But. Unfortunately. I thought about it. It will sometimes pop up in my brain. Randomly. Usually when I least expect it. I'll be talking with Remus and Sirius. And then it will come. It's always in my subconscious. But. It will come to my conscious. And make me think about it. The whole thing. Never bits of it. The whole thing. And then I go silent. I'll be in the middle of a sentence. And then. The memory will pop up. And I'll go silent. For a few minutes. It happens often. I go silent. And Remus and Sirius go silent as well. For a minute. They don't know what to do. Then they try and snap me out of it. Tell a joke. Ask me a question. But it never works. Never. They just have to wait it out. For a few minutes anyway. Then. We continue our conversation. Like nothing happened. We pretend like nothing happened. But we subconsciously think about it. Especially me.

But right now. I thought of nothing. I stared at the opposite wall. My face blank. I didn't even notice the person open the door and walk in. Not until they spoke.

"Hey, Aspen. The meetings over. You can come down for dinner."

I snapped out of my trance and looked up. It was Sirius.

"Thanks. I'm starving." I got up. Gave Buckbeak once last pat. And followed Sirius out the door and down the many stairs to the kitchen.

Mostly everybody had left. Not many people stayed after the meetings. They usually left straight after. The only person left was Alastor Moody. He was talking with Remus at the table. As soon as I started moving towards the table. He looked up at me and got up.

"Well. If it isn't the Potter girl."

"Hi, Alastor."

"Hello. How have you been?"

"Good. You?"

"Eh. I've been fine." He paused for a sec. Looking at Remus and Sirius, who had walked over to Remus and sat down next to him. "Anyway. Got to go. You keep out of trouble Missy."

"I know. Constant vigilance." I said with a smirk. Repeating the words of the fake Moody said last year.

Moody huffed and started walking to the kitchen door. As he passed me, he gave me a pat on the shoulder. I watched him leave.