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³⁶ : closet

"hoshi get out of the closet."

yeonjun stood by the closet door but instead of listening to him, hoshi shook his head, hugging his legs to himself as he further buried himself in piles of jackets. yeonjun sighed, looking at the clock and noticing that the dance was going to officially start soon. "i love you man like i really do but i can't stay here the whole night or else soobin will actually not let me hear the end of it."

hoshi, not lifting his head up, waved him away, snifling slightly as he did so.

yeonjun lingered for a bit longer before patting hoshi's head and rushing for the dance which left hoshi alone with his thoughts.

not only was he embarrassed for having his feelings exposed but it hurt him even more that he himself couldn't tell woozi on his own about how he felt. and with how he was genuinely looking forward to admiring him in his formal outfit from afar, the fact that he now couldn't even face him hurt him even more.

"he hates me," he murmured to himself, wrapping his arms around himself tightly as he pushed his back against the closet door, completely destroying the organisation that his closet once had.

he never intended to fall for woozi. in fact, he never intended to fall for anyone in the first place when he had stepped into the school for the first time a few weeks ago. but, when he had entered the classroom and caught sight of him sitting at the back flanked by a boy clad in all black and another boy whose fingertips sparked with magic, he instantly felt an attraction towards him as though they were magnets drawn to each other.

since then, he wanted to befriend woozi but never got the chance and what made matters worse was how he seemed to hate every fibre of him with a passion despite not knowing much about him apart from his story and his name.

and yet, his feelings never went away and for the first time since he had gotten his role of mad hatter, he truly felt as though he were mad. instead of chasing after someone else or moving on, he still harboured fond feelings for someone who had explicitly told him that he could never see him that way.

his fear of being made fun of by woozi outweighed his disappointment in dokyeom for revealing his crush to everyone active in the chat. so much so, that a part of him had already forgotten that dokyeom had done such a thing.

"i'm going down the rabbit hole," he whispered, squeezing himself to become an even tinier ball in the corner of his closet as his mind shot thought after thought at him.

"what rabbit hole are you talking about?" hoshi looked up, immediately grabbing the nearest hoodie and holding it before himself like a makshift weapon. "what? are you going to kill me with cotton?" woozi asked, folding his arms and lazily poking at the hoodie which immediately went in on itself at the slightest touch. "like owner, like hoodie."

woozi stood before him in an all black suit, his hair slightly slicked back as he took a seat on the nearest bed which just so happened to be hoshis' and if hoshi weren't so scared of what he was going to say, he would've managed to snap a picture right there and then of just how beautiful he looked.

but instead, he was fumbling to find the right words to say, thinking of all the different ways to excuse his feelings or whether or not he should play it off as a joke or whatnot but before he could speak, woozi broke the silence.

"stop beating yourself up for having feelings," he started, crossing his leg over the other and inching forward on the bed. "you're in there because you're embarrassed right?" hoshi slowly nodded, unable to make eye contact with woozi and still staying in his own little space. woozi sighed, moving down and sitting right in front of the closet instead. "you don't have to be."

his simple words were enough to make hoshi's heart race and a part of him was afraid that woozi could hear every beat and would ask if he was having heart failure considering woozi's general attitude towards everyone.

"i know i'm harsh but i have to admit that you have guts to proclaim your feelings for me, even if it was someone else who aired it out." woozi shifted slightly, taking his phone out of his pocket so that he could sit more comfortably. "but before we talk, can you get the fuck out of the closet?"

"talk about what?" hoshi asked, slowly moving away from his corner but still hiding behind a few mountains of clothes.

woozi shrugged. "maybe you can talk about your feelings? then we can see what else we can talk about from there."

it felt unreal. it felt like he had truly gone insane and a part of his mind kept telling him that woozi being in his room was a mere illusion he had constructed in his head to force himself to leave the safety offered by the small enclosed space that was his closet.

"honestly, i didn't want to go to the dance anyways so you doing all this shit is beneficial for me in some sense," woozi added on, his eyes locked onto hoshis' every movement. "for someone who likes me, you sure as hell don't want to talk to me."

in some moments, hoshi found it difficult to decipher between what was real between what wasn't, his mind often playing tricks on him in an attempt to truly turn him into the mad hatter his story wanted. he felt trapped in his own head.

"what's the use of having the ability to speak but not speaking?" woozi asked, tilting his head ever so slightly before scooting closer to hoshi when he realised that the hoodie he was holding onto had tear stains on it.

"are you real?" whenever he felt overwhelmed, he preferred small spaces, his mind not quite able to conjure up as much hallucinations as they normally could when he was out and about.

woozi nodded but realised that hoshi wasn't even looking at him. "what kind of dumbass asks shit like that?" he hesitated for a moment before sighing and taking the arm of his hoodie and lightly throwing it at him. "i'm as real as that hoodie you're holding."

mustering all the energy he could, hoshi raised his head and looked at him straight in the eyes and when he saw a certain spark in them, he knew that he was truly there since after all, it was that same spark that had caused him to fall for him the moment he saw him.

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vee talks!
aHah remember how i said it'll be the dance chap...well clearly it isn't bc i felt like giving soonhoon a chapter and i-

IM SORRY IF YOU WERE WAITING FOR A DANCE CHAP 😭😭😭 probably next chapter 🧍