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38 | Aiden

The ride to Juliet apartment is filled with silence. Nothing but the low buzzing of the radio and the honking outside the car.

Even as we walk into the elevator, nothing is said.

My head starts reeling with all the different outcomes that can come after this conversation. Our footsteps mesh together and the clinking out Juliet's keys reach my ears.

It's almost like I can hear my heart pounding against my chest. The palms of my hands slowly get sweaty. It is aggravating to think that I may never know what goes through Juliet's head.

Sitting down on one end of the couch, Juliet sits on the opposite side. I scan Juliet's face, looking for any sort of emotion or reaction but her face remains stolid.

"I don't even know what to ask anymore." My breath hitches, taking in what she had just said.

I gulp, "ask me anything. Ill probably have an answer for it."

She seems to think for a moment. "Did you mean what you had said that day? The last day I saw you I mean."

"God no. Never. I was an idiot to say all that. More than an idiot actually, but no I didn't mean it. I wouldn't even have to balls to be here if I had meant what I said that day."

"Than why the fuck did you even say it?" With scrunched eyebrows she shakes her head.

I rub a hand over my jaw, trying to collect my thoughts before I fuck up the only chance I have.

"I was scared."

"Scared of what, exactly Aiden."

"I was scared. I was scared at the chance of losing you."

"So, you pushed me away, because that adds up." Her lips purse together.

"Do you think that was easy Juliet? Fuck no, it wasn't. it was between losing you for the time being or losing you permanently. I couldn't let that happen."

"Lose me permanently? What are you talking about?" Those stupid fucking letters are the whole reason why I'm in this situation.

At this point if they wouldn't have happened, I would probably been married to the gorgeous woman in front of me, but of course I couldn't.

"Months before that day I was getting letters. The letters contained pictures of you. Sometimes they were while we were out but the last one was of you in your house. I cant recall really the pictures, I had someone burn them." I scratch my temple. I take in Juliet's face.

Her face fills with rage, so I continue.

"While all the letters were coming in, I had a team looking for the location of where they the were coming from. The day before going to your house, the team had found this building, and they were sure that whoever was sending the letters was within the building."

The memories following the event come rushing over me. I should've seen it coming if I'm being honest with myself.

"Why didn't you just tell me that. You could've talked about it with me. Yet you decided to do that Aiden." Betrayal floods her eyes.

Turning away from her face, I look out the window. Would everything really be easier if I had told her? Maybe I if i would have told her I wouldn't be sitting here, explaining.

"I figured... I thought it was an easier way out for you, I guess. That way if anything would have happened to me, you wouldn't be as attached to me as you once were." That's the best I could say.

I was a coward at the end of the day. In reality I was running away. A bitter laugh fills the room and I know for sure it didn't come from me.

"Aiden. You truly believe after all you said that night, that if anything happened to you it wouldn't have hurt?" Her hand grips onto my face, turning it to look at her. "It would have hurt Aiden. For god's sake, I loved you! A couple words weren't going to change that."