nineteen

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Blue's POV

The more I drink the more relaxed I feel, but I just can't seem to shake the anxious feeling deep inside me that Kaiden might show up.

I look around me and realise Travis has gone missing. Fuck Travis. I start to get nervous.

Fucking idiot just left me..

I walk further into the house trying desperately to find my friend. My nerves are at an all time high now. I make my way down a hallway frantically hoping he might be down there when I accidentally bump into someone, causing them to spill their drink a little.

I look down at the purple lean splattered on the floor, too nervous to even look up. "Hey" a voice says. I look up. He didn't look mad, in fact he looked kind of... I don't know, friendly?

"I'm so sorry" I blurt, "I didn't mean to.."

"It's aight lil mama" he voice says, calmly. "I'm Lil Tracy"

"I'm Blue" I say nervously, trying not to make it obvious or look awkward.

"What's the matter, you aight? You seem stressed out" he says, noticing my demeanour. Shit.

"Uh yeah.. i'm fine i'm just kinda lost" I reply, embarrassed he noticed how flustered I am.

He just smiled at me, and eyed me up and down. "Whatchu tryna find?" he asks with a slight grin.
"Uhh I lost my friend Trav.." I start. "It's okay don't worry bout Trav i'm sure he's aight. I'll be you're friend for the night" replies, in a sweet tone that took me by surprised. "Follow me" he says and begins to make his way through the crowd of people with me awkwardly trailing along behind.

He must be of some kind of relevance I suppose, because people keep addressing him and taking pictures. I try to hide behind him and avoid the cameras as we make our way into the kitchen area. I don't even know why i'm following him but I have no idea where Trav went and I was scared to be alone.

There were a handful of boys in the kitchen. One particularly tall and covered in tattoos. He stared at me. My heart began to pound, his eyes locked on me as mine awkwardly dart around the room. He looks familiar but I can't figure out why..

"This my friend for the night" Tracy announces looking at me. He laughs.

The tattooed boy still hasn't broken his stare, I don't know whether to feel intimidated, scared or flattered... then I connect the dots.

Oh my god it's that rapper Trav and Kaiden love. I didn't expect him to actually be here..

"What's your name" Peep asks me, finally breaking his silent stare.

"Blue" I reply nervously. "You're name is Blue? Is that you're real name??" the boy next to him with a British accent asks.

"..yeah" I say quietly. "That's so sick" Peep comments, grinning at me. I didn't realise he was so cute.. I never really paid any attention to him when Travis and Kaiden would go on and on about him.

Peep smirks at his friends and mouths the word "dibs" trying to be discreet but it was completely obvious. "No way bro fair game" the boy with the British accent replies out loud, to which Peep lightly punches his arm in response. Peep gives Tracy his glare as if to say get the fuck outta here.

"She's my friend bro sorry" Tracy smirks back at him. I'm standing there completely silent. Weirdly starting to feel like an object rather than a person. "Uh i'm gonna look for my friend Travis" I say.

"Wait" Peep says, "I'll come with you". I stare back at him for a second. I notice his big deep chocolate brown eyes and immediately give in and say okay.

Peep grabs my hand and begins to lead me back through the crowd. I look back at Tracy and he winks and grins at me. I started to feel overwhelmed at the crowd of people forming around Peep. Everywhere he went, people were following, filming him, talking to him, but he was focused on leading me out of the chaos. I stare down at his tattooed hand clutching mine. How did I end up holding hands with my ex boyfriends favourite rapper?

Peep turns his head back as if to check on me. I think he notices my distress because he takes me into a quiet(ish) spot in the hallway. He lightly presses my back against the wall and stands close in front of me, as if to use his own body to shield me from all of the people pushing passed and staring at us. His tall lean frame towers over me and I look up at his face. I immediately get lost in his soft brown eyes again. I study the tattoos on his face.

"You okay Blue?" he says softly into my ear. I nod. "Yeah i'm just a little overwhelmed" I reply. "You wanna go somewhere less crowded?" He asks. I think about it. "Yeah I think tha..." I start, when I notice something I wish I hadn't out the corner of my eye. My heart starts to race uncontrollably. I start to shake a little, trying not to make it obvious.

"You aight?" he says, genuinely looking concerned. My throat starts to tighten. "I think my ex is here..." I say. "Really? Where?"

I stare over at Kaiden, who's just noticed me, his ex girlfriend basically pressed up against his favourite artist, Lil Peep. What the fuck.

"Him?" Peep asks glaring back at Kaiden. I nod. "He fucking loves your music so this is super.." I start, then before I know it Peep has pressed his lips up against mine.

Oh my god.

I decide to just go for it, if this doesn't give Kaiden the hint i'm never going back I don't know what will. I kiss him back, his warm lips moving with mine, then I feel his tongue. He places one hand on my waist and his other hand between my neck and jawline.

I wasn't looking at him, but I could feel Kaiden's eyes burning into me and Peep.

We make out for a what feels like a long time. It relaxed me, it was like I melted into his fingertips and nothing mattered anymore. When I finally pulled away I looked up at him again, he was giving me this huge goofy grin, like a little kid.. except with a pink grill. I had to admit it was kinda cute. Then I glance back over in Kaiden's direction. He was still watching us. He had a wild look in his eyes. He looked full of rage. He drops his cup full of liquid and storms off into the sea of people.

I look back at Peep, still with that goofy grin. "You won't have to worry about him anymore" he chuckles. Damn smooth.