nightmares | minsung ☑

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Minho POV

It's not like I usually speak in english interviews but I was particularly quiet in this one. I was mostly just thinking. Thinking way too hard. Occasionally I would catch something and laugh, but that was all. Hopefully, fans won't worry about me. 

When we got back to the studio Chan pulled me aside, saying he wanted to talk to me. Here we go. 

Once we were alone with the door locked of course he said "Alright, tell me everything. I mean you don't have to but I always feel better after sharing."

"Nothing really happened. I'm just tired. Last night I had a nightmare that Jisung died and I couldn't go back to sleep. That's it."

"Alright... well just know there's a very small chance of him dying."

"I know that. It just freaked me out." 

"I dream of people dying all the time, when I sleep that is. It's just caused by stress."

"Understandable." 

"Okay, let's get to practice. You don't have to do much dancing if you're tired."

We made our way to the practice room. Felix immediately asking what we were talking about, and Chan immediately coming up with a clever lie.

Chan and I used to date when we were trainees, no one knows but us. It's a secret I really want to expose but Chan doesn't want to and I respect that. 

We were honestly just together for sex, we never had more that platonic feelings for each other. But we were lonely. That's kind of how I feel right now, lonely. 

I want a boyfriend so bad. (a/n: same but a girlfriend lol)

Or at least some sex.

I don't even know if Jisung likes men, I think he's straight. Everyone else except Hyunjin and Chan are straight. Chan is pan and Hyunjin is bi. They've always been out. I only came out to the rest of the group last year. 

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I got into bed. It's only 9pm but I'm exhausted. 

I woke up, sweaty and panting, again. 

I looked at my clock and it was only midnight. I tried my best to calm down but I couldn't. I needed to see him. 

I walked to his room. I stood in front of the door for a minute, contemplating. I knocked softly, assuming he was still awake.

"Yeah?"

I opened the door and walked in. He was laying in his bed on his phone.

"Hi, um... could I... sleep with you? I had the dream again... " I said nervously.

"Oh... um, sure." He smiled.
"I was about to go to sleep anyway." 

"Thank you." I said, he laughed quietly at me.

He scooted over to one side of the queen bed, and I got in. It was comfier than my bed. Maybe it was just because he was next to me. (a/n: the cringe I just felt ._. )

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