A Lifetime With You

Willow.

Continued from the same day
"Joe, she's been here for 4 hours. Our baby needs a name" I said, looking down at my nursing baby girl. "You need sleep like she needs a name. We'll name our girl once you're more rested. Once she gets done eating, go to sleep" he said. "I can't. It's so hard" I say as I start crying again, looking down at my tiny baby and caress her cheek. He wiped my tears. "I just love her so much" I said. "I know. I do too. We have the rest of our lives with her, honey" he said, kissing my lips softly. "They're only this little once, Joe" I said. "You're right about that" he replied. Once she finished eating, I passed her to Joe. "Pretty sure she has a poopy diaper" I said. I slowly swing my legs over the edge of the bed. "Woah...easy. Where are you going?" he asks. "To pee. Didn't know I needed your permission" I said, sarcastically. He changed her diaper as I went to the bathroom. I grabbed my squirt bottle and sprayed warm water down there as I peed. "Holy fuck" I whispered softly. It's the kinda burning sensation that brings a tear to the eye. Once she was changed, he came to the bathroom to check on me. "You ok?" he asked. "Mhm. Never better" I struggled to say. He helped me back to bed and I lied down for a nap and he went downstairs to tend to the kids while baby girl slept next to me in her bassinet.

9 PM
I'm sitting up in bed breastfeeding and Joe brings the kids in one at a time to tell me goodnight, Avery being the last. Her siblings don't know it, but she gets to stay up longer than them. "Mommy, I haven't gotten to hold her yet" Avery said, sounding sad. "It's ok. After she gets done eating you can hold her, ok?" I said, reassuring her. Once she finished eating, I changed her diaper and let Avery hold her. "She's so little, mommy" Avery said. "I know. She's 6 pounds" I said. "I don't want her to get big" Avery said. "Guess what? I didn't want any of you to grow up and you are. We have a while til baby gets big though so let's not think about it" I said. "Does she have a name yet?" she asked me. "Not yet. She will by the time you get up tomorrow" I said.

9:30 PM
"Ok they are sound asleep. Avery, tell mummy goodnight. It's time for bed, kiddo" Joe said. She kissed the baby's head as I took her back into my arms. She gave me a kiss and a hug and Joe went to tuck her in for bed. He came back to our room and closed the door behind him. He took off his shirt and pants, leaving him in only his briefs. "Bedtime" he said, getting under the covers. "Good job today" he said, kissing me. "You too. Thank you." I said. He lied down and I put the baby in her bassinet and I went to bed as well.

2 AM
The baby woke up crying. I start nursing her. "Babe" I said, shaking Joe awake. He usually gets up with me so I'm surprised he was still out. "What?" he said, squinting his eyes at the light. "I'm hungry. I really want some fries and a chocolate shake from Mcdonald's" I said. "Now?" he asked. I pouted my face at him and batted my eyes. He sighed before getting up and slipping on sweatpants and a t shirt. "I love you" he said, coming over to kiss me bye. "I love you too. Thank you" I said. He leaned down to kiss the baby's head. These breastfeeding cravings are no joke.

2:30 AM
I was changing the baby's diaper and she's screaming bloody murder. Joe comes into the room and hands me my snacks. "Oh my goodness, poor baby. Is mummy being mean to my girl?" he said, laying across the bed, rubbing her head trying to calm her. "She's pissed I took her off the boob to change her. Her diaper needed to be changed desperately. Didn't want her sitting in pee for that long" I said. Once I finished changing her, I cradle her in my arms and latch her onto my other breast. "Thanks for going to get this for me" I said. "Thanks for pushing this out for me" he said, kissing baby's head. "So we need to discuss our options for contraception for when we can have sex again because I'm not getting put on birth control" I say. "Oh hell no. I don't want you on birth control anyways. If you did decide to do it, I'd support your decision regardless, but I wouldn't want that for you. Neither of us like condoms" he said. "I know neither of us like condoms, but what if I wanted you to wear one? Would you?" I ask. "Of course. I'd do it because you have given me the gift of our children and I know how painful birth and postpartum is for you. I'd rather suck it up than see you in pain for the 5th time." he said. "And that's why I love you. I'll probably just take a plan B pill" I say. "So do you like Willow for her name?" Joe asked. "I love it actually. It's so cute" I said, looking down at her and tearing up again. "Are you ok, babe?" he asked me. "I just love her so much" I said. "Ughhh I'm in so much pain" I said, whining. "Can I do anything?" he asks. "Rub my back please" I said. He sat behind me and rubbed my lower back. Willow ended up falling asleep while she was nursing so I unlatched her and swaddled her in a little blanket and put her in the bassinet next to our bed. I lied down and snuggled up next to Joe. He kissed my forehead. "I turned down the role I told you about" he said. "Babe! Why? You were so excited about that one" I said, running my index finger over his bare chest. "I was, but you guys are more important. They wanted me to fly out to film two weeks from today. I'm not leaving you with a newborn and our 3 small kids. I know what my priorities are and it's you guys" he said. I really found a good man.

4 AM
I was awoken by Willow crying. I picked her up and put her in the middle of Joe and I and started nursing her while lying down. The first few days of breastfeeding are excruciating and as much as it hurts, I still somehow start drifting off to sleep. Joe starts to toss over in his sleep. "I love you" he said softly. "I love you too" I said back, thinking he was just talking in his sleep. "I love you more" he said back. "And you too peanut" he said kissing the baby's head. "God I'm so fucking sleepy" he said. "Why can't you sleep?" I ask him. "I keep waking myself up to make sure you two are okay. I'm kinda pissed though because that dream was so hot" he said. "We're fine, daddy. Go back to sleep" I said. "What was it about anyway?" I asked. "Well, we had just met and 15 minutes later, we were fucking in a club bathroom. Much to reality, you weren't quiet and someone caught us, but we didn't care. Afterwards, I offered to drop you off at home and you accepted. You said you needed to shower and that I could come in and sleep on the couch if I wanted. I lied down on the couch and minutes later, you told me that you were naked and invited me into your bed and of course I accepted that invitation. We fucked some more and I ate you out. And then I woke up" he said. Willow broke away from my breast and started crying. I turn on the lamp and sit up. For some reason she hates nursing while lying down. Joe got up to pee and did so with the bathroom door wide open. "You have a cute butt, babe" I said. "Thanks" he said, smacking it. I roll my eyes and shake my head at him. "Your daddy is crazy" I said, looking down at my nursing baby. "Thank you for being the 0.01% of men that washes their hands after using the bathroom every time" I said. "I just had my dick in my hands. Of course I'm gonna wash them" he said. "Remember the last time I had your dick in MY hands?" I asked. He chuckled and collapsed down onto the bed, hands covering his face. "These 6 weeks are absolute torture" he said. "Oh I don't wanna hear it. In a few days, I'll be giving you nightly blowjobs before bed and I get absolutely no sexual contact whatsoever. You know how torturous that is for ME? I could tell you to just jerk off, but no. I love you and I care about your horniness enough to take care of it for you. You know how hard that is for me? You know how horny I get just by sucking you off..." I said. "I know honey, I know. And I love you and you're amazing. And I thank you. And thank you for this beautiful little gift right here. And the other ones sleeping down the hall. Trust me, when you're cleared, I'm gonna fuck you senseless and eat you out til you squirm" he said. "Also, you never said anything about my dream. You asked what it was about, but there were no further comments" he said. "Get back to me in 6 weeks when we can recreate it. Until then, I have no comments" I said, smirking at him. His jaw dropped. "We're gonna fuck in a club bathroom?" he asked. I said nothing and turned out the light. Wait and see Joe. Wait and see.

Idk how I feel about this, but it's been a long time coming and I'm so sorry, I've just been super unmotivated. I felt like you guys were bored of this story. Still taking requests so PLEASE leave them in the comments! That's what motivates me a lot—your requests! Hope everyone is doing well. Mwah 💋