A Lifetime With You

The More The Merrier

November 5th 2019
Taylor's POV
Since coming back from the honeymoon, things have been super shitty. The person who helped me start my career by signing me to his record label is now trying to take everything from me. I honestly cant believe this. That's MY music. Joe is currently in the UK filming and I'm home alone with the cats. I hate being away from him. The house feels so empty and I need him more now than ever. I've been feeling so sick and sad that I don't even wanna do anything but lay in bed. I start going through my calendar on my phone and my heart starts racing. "Holy fuck" I say out loud. I start panicking. I put on some baggy clothes and put a hood over my head, hoping to be unrecognizable. I rush to the local drugstore up the road and I purchase 4 pregnancy tests. I speed back home and rip open two of the tests. I'm shaking uncontrollably as I am nervous. I pace the bathroom for 5 minutes impatiently. After the 5 minutes pass, I pick up the tests. Positive. "WHAT?!" I yell. I go to the kitchen and drink a ton of water so I'll have to pee again soon. About 30 minutes later, I run to the bathroom to take the other tests. Positive. I fall to the floor and start sobbing. I sit there for about an hour crying, staring at the wall. I take a deep breath and stand up. I start talking to my reflection. "Taylor, you got this. Stop crying. It'll be ok. You're about to be 30. You've had a rough couple of weeks. This could be good." I don't know why I was freaking out. Probably because of all the stress I was under. I start crying again only this time it's because I wish Joe was here. It's like he ready my mind because my phone started going off. I answered his Facetime call. "Baby, what's wrong? Why have you been crying?" he asked. "It's nothing. I'm fine. Everything's gonna be fine." He knew I was lying. "Is it about the whole Scott and Scooter situation again?" he asks. I nod and start crying again. "Awww sweetie, I'm sorry. I wish I was there to make it better. You're the strongest person I know. You're gonna make it through this." I smile. We finish talking and I a call my gynecologist to get the earliest available appointment tomorrow.

10 AM the next morning
I throw on some clothes, put on a little bit of makeup and brush my teeth before heading out. I get to the doctor and I start bouncing my knee, feeling more nervous than ever. I get called back and she requested that I change into a gown and take off my panties. She came back into the room. "So, what brings you in here today Mrs. Alwyn?" my doctor asked. "Well, I haven't been feeling well for a while. I thought it was just all the stress I've been under, but I took 4 pregnancy tests yesterday and they came back positive. I just wanted to come in to get checked out." She pulled out some paperwork and started asking me questions. "When was your last period?"
"I have no clue. I've been so busy lately that I haven't kept up with it." I answer. "Are you experiencing more vaginal discharge than normal? Any breast tenderness?" I shake my head. "Ok. Well I'm gonna have to do an internal ultrasound because you're not far enough along for me to do one over your lower belly. It's a little uncomfortable, just gonna warn you." I nod. I lie back and put my feet in the stirrups. She grabs the probe to do the ultrasound and I wince as she puts it in. "I'm sorry. I know it's uncomfortable. But...that right there is your baby. By the looks of it, you're about 10 weeks along." How did I not know I was pregnant? Looking back, I know EXACTLY which night this baby was conceived. "Is it normal that I haven't had morning sickness or anything?" I ask. "Some women don't have it. Some women experience it later on. Now that you know for sure, it'll probably start soon. Your breasts might become a little achey. If you need absolutely anything or have any questions, you can call me, ok? I know it sounds impossible because of everything going on in your life, but try and take it easy. Baby can sense your stress and that's not good. That's the lead cause in miscarriages. Congrats mama." "Thank you. Can you print that for me?" She prints the picture of our little baby for me. When I arrive home, I sit on the couch and look at the picture of this little human. I start tearing up again. I'm really gonna be a mom. I can't wait to show Joe. I know how excited he's gonna be. I kiss the picture and put it on the fridge. I go upstairs to my room and undress and go to take a shower. I turn sideways and look in the mirror. I see a slight bump, but it's not too noticeable yet. I try to imagine myself bigger, but it's hard for me to do so. Guess I'll have to wait and see.